Friends and Alibis

AHAHAHAHA. yeah yeah unexpected emo-ing last entry BUT! today has been somewhat weird in a funny way but its like funny ah! ahaha.. i dunno whats up with me but well anyways.. i was tasked to clean my room for the day and move stuff around so yeah with a lil help of mom kinda cleaned it up good in about 2 hours. so i went through my notes and stuff and as i look through i found something that me and anul contributed in a span of like 1 week i think HAHAHA. oh the good old days.now if u have been wondering what we've been doing when Miss Liew ignored us during maths lesson.. this is us,expressing our hatred towards miss liew (ASS!!) HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. click to zoom it in.. YOU HAVE TO ZOOM IN. :DD look what we wrote LOL. im telling you, me and anul will hate her forever until the day we die. until the day i dieeeeee..i'll spill my..~~ eh lame la Herrizal that song got no link with this lah :X



Mount Everest on the 'cumulative' graph AHAHA.. dont ask me wtf is hairy monster or why its there.. ASK ANUL! and NO, i DONT know of any hairy monster ok... no no. hmph. I DONT OK!! >:(
*looks away**



'I hope she burns in HELL!' and the cute little devil with his cute lil pitchfork is my creation AHAHA. yes that woman whos an ass is miss liew.



Anul = Anal :PPPP..



sry if u ppls cant see this but it reads,
zal: eh you want to cabot go recess early? run ah
anul: wait 5 min..she never see we go

ahahaha theres more btw! physics book even more about mr Fauroni AHAHA.. and i also found my sis's french speaking book :|.. "Je M'apelle Yenny.Je suis Singapourien. J' habite á Paris".. wth? lol.. you know my sis can speak like i think six languages :S..fucking smart bastard.. :(. English,fluent German,fluent French,Malay,Chinese and a lil bit of spanish.. no wonder my parents are always blabbering 'BE LIKE YOUR SIS AND STUDY HARD'.. i guess its true lah,shes smarter than me :|..no wonder she always gets praises all the time..jealous sia :P.

anyways gonna miss Anul so so sooooo bad.. haha miss the times when the common guys and girls in NA would skip school and come to my house to play xbox,chat with ppl who're in school HAHA,watch movies,gossip about ppl etc etc :DD.esp when dad got a new dvd player and he put it in my room :D.. big tv + ok-ok dvd player = 3 days a week pon school with friends HAHAHA.Im telling you my room is nice ok?! the common ppls who pon school seem to agree that my bed is heavenly and lying down on a nice bed to watch on a big ass tv,is AWESOME :P. see that is what happens to the people who dont come to school often and produce no MC or reason :P.they all chill at my house HAHA.next year cannot do like that anymore :P. occasionally can ah.. eh no no noooo.. cannoooot next year must study hard. anyways if i wanted to also,who to bring to my house now? :/. almost everyone who used to do it are gone now :( oh yeah i found out that vivo's probably gonna be full so probably going to watch fireworks at Marina with the guys :D.. which reminds me of something funny that happened after the match yesterday..so we went to IMM to eat and stuff and well while eating mizi talked about the outing,heres how it went.

Mizi: eh new years eve we go out ah watch fireworks!!
me & others: can can..anything
Mizi: NO GIRLS AH! its boys night out.
me: eh what boys night out sounds gay sia..
Mizi: no girls lah..
me: no i know ah,no girls..but it sounds gay lah.. what boys night out.. sounds gay sia,what we're all gonna make out or something? lets just call it, 'new years eve outing' ok.. what boys night out..... gay sia.
**silence**
everyone: HAHAHAHA

ahaha... and mizi frickin pushed me while going up the bus steps and I saw oh god.. old woman's uhh..behind.F'ING DISGUSTING MAN WTH!! and that reminds me of hafizah on the steps at bukit timah after the pool incident OMFG OMG. NO NO NO NO NO. I DIDNT SAW THAT :X. im gonna kill him for asking me to faster go up the steps when the old lady is infront of me..:( mmm feeling the sudden urge to go eat at sakae sushi or maybe Seoul Garden or maybe Al-ameen at bukit timah :DD.Last time I went to those 3 places was maybe like a month ago? yeah with Isaac,Yuan Liang,Pei Pei,Wei Jie & Fairuz :). gonna plan something soon with Isaac once school reopens :D.

im feeling totally happy now just cause of me finding that in our maths book ahaha.. previous post got off well but ended up unexpectedly being emo :X.. but not this one!! im keeping this one on track :D!!anyways Chelsea vs Newcastle now and im not watching wth!! ok time for me to watch :). hopefully chelsea win eh! if they dont win im gonna go on a rampage cuz no more excuses now.. Ballack is back playing alongside shevchenko so they BETTER win!!well im off to watch the match. Happy New Year in advance :D!!
Nite ppls :)

Too much of the same stories in our lives. I think its time for change, dont you?

GOALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!! :DD

YEAHH..lost the match but still I scored 2 goals :D..was a little pissed with the midfield ppls not giving me the ball..then when give me the ball I score.. haiya.. see lah! and after the match my big toe had cramp and it bend in like more than 90 degrees angle.. omg like broken toe.. Aidil have the video but he havent uploaded it yet.. SO PAIN MAN! well anyways been working out lately and check this pic out ahaha!! LOOK AT MY ARM :DD Halim says like its like too oversized for me LOL.I think its still abit small so im thinking of making it bigger.. and look at my hair so #@$#$%!## man..Herrizal with long hair beats Herrizal with short hair by a million times.. nvm nvm the next major holiday we'll see the Herrizal with long hair again ahaha.. I call it the 'bruce lee' hair :P.Herrizal with long hair feels good cuz everyone loves him (lol as if..self-praising sia :P) but now Herrizal with short hair..... looks like someone who just got out of boys home LOL :x

anyways Halim still thinks that i edited the pic somehow LOL.. he was like 'WHOAA' when i showed him the pic.. well whatever atleast if im attached in the future I can protect the girl ah.. cheywah! meh..who wants to be attached to herrizal anyways :/. im too picky -.-. always wants the best..who doesnt? :/..then at last his so called 'best' was the worst in history :/.well atleast I dont go for looks now.I go for both ^_^. more on the inside than on the outside...

bah great..typing that reminds me of something that i wanted to share with you guys but always forgot.these few songs really made an impact to me when it was i think sec 2 Cameron Highlands trip. when everyone was sleeping I was at the back of the bus looking outside the window,well pathetically crying silently while it was raining really.I guess thats why i always associate rain with ppl being sad eh? sudden realisation of 'oh my god I ran out of someone's life and I didnt even know it till now..and i love that person so much! oh my god.' and what was supposed to be a fun trip made me go all emo because I realised that I blew a big chance without me even noticing it. and that I cant do anything to redeem myself because it was all over years back,I lost my chance and she probably forgot about me.From what started from 'do you think she'll like you if she saw you like this?' led to 2 years of hell trying to search for her just to see her and talk to her again.im sure everyone remembers how i was back then.. change was for the better,but 'for the better' never came.Listen to the lyrics,it kind of tells about how I felt when I heard it for the first time. Still Frame and Lost Realist just made me sad but Stories(the one in my blog but that version sucks cuz its like live..the original one is better,go search for it on youtube..) and Waiting was like the icing on the cake -_-. jackpot. fucking lyrics man... sad truth. every.single.line. especially the bridge of Stories and the chorus of Waiting. :(

Trapt - Waiting


oh god i cant continue any longer -_-. see lah! i made myself emo again. No use feeling sad unless theres a solution to it.And to think I can waste my time on my ex than to go for someone much much MUCH better.Opportunity thrown to the drain.Worst part is that I know i made a mistake by forgetting about someone but I cant redeem myself for what ive done.I miss the times when we spoke on msn freely.Honestly after that two years and actually finding her after I was going to give up was oh-so-sweet. hah..I just remembered something and its making me laugh :D
'omg are you still tiny?!' sigh..where did the good times go? uhh. im totally in no mood now cuz once again im a fucking asshole thinking about these things again like I do each night before i sleep which will turn out to give me nightmares or make me unable to sleep. fuck. Herrizal is such a fucking dumbass..looks like im gonna be alone for quite some time eh?

well anyways gonna hit vivo or marina on New Years Eve. depends on the ppls who are going.gonna hit the sack now cuz im tired and once again ive made myself emo. beh. pathetic man.. but I cant help it really :/. its too overwhelming for me to totally forget everything.there's just nobody like her,and thats something special that I really love about her. all the effort in a span of 2 years,gone to waste.Moral of the story: dont delay in expressing your feelings to someone even though how terrified you might be. just go for it,even though you think that asking will lead to her hating you(even though i have no fucking idea why hating comes after me asking). worst case scenario,if that happens,it wouldnt hurt as much as it hurts me when i delayed it for too long...5,nearing 6 years this coming Tuesday to be exact.Always cherish the ones that you love,I know I will if i had one.. except for my ex that fucking scumbag piece of shit mother... ok im getting angry HAHA! thats it feel happy Herrizal even though theres nothing to be happy about :).totally changed the initial point of my entry lol..u can see i was happy happy at first.. forgive me about being emo okay? :P

nite guys or eh.. Evening :P. im gonna go SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP. :)

Ballack's Return!! WOO!!

- Ballack's return from Injury = AWESOMENESS.. but in the end 4-4 draw against Aston Villa.well atleast Sheva scored 2,alex scored 1 and Ballack scored 1. Sheva + Ballack = :DDD
- imeem being a bitch and putting 30 sec for songs that i really want to put here.. argh
- Herrizal is very smart to eat the WHOLE ferrero rocher choc that was given to him in 40 mins..and then the next day, SORETHROAT -_-..nice.. real nice. keep up the good work -_-''..
- Friday morning got soccer match against not sure who.. debating on whether I wanna risk me getting dark or not.. lol especially when im fair like hell now.. except for today.
- i cut my hair and my self esteem is so low that i can........ ah it'll grow back.besides,it will look good in 2 weeks time. WHICH WILL SEEM LIKE FOREVER.well,atleast i look like sheva when he has short hair ahaha.. positivenessism! :D
- my arm is quite ok now :D. those work out sessions are starting to pay off! need more buffing to do..
- work out work out work out eat eat eat think think think sleep sleep sleep.

seriously im just being totally random right now so yeah here you go,shortest entry of all.
nite & sweet dreams ppls! :)

Merry Christmas ppls!! :)

before i start anything i'd like to mention this before anything else.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL OF YOU PPLS :DD

yeah yeah even though im not celebrating im getting presents all over ahaha..thanks to mom's colleagues..CHOCOLATE!! FERRERO ROCHÉ!! **spasm** more came after that pic was taken and i got even more presents ahaha.. im sure everyone or mostly everyone received my message right? lol funny story really..i wanted to send to all then i realised something, ALMOST sent to some people who i really despise and got bad history with me..cheating scoundrel :X stupid shika.knn the thought of it makes me pissed..lucky i didnt message her lol phew whatever.. atleast i sent it to people who I dont hate at all :D ok so the jamming that day was alright I guess but if put aside Jack literally screaming at everyone including himself it'll be better :P. I got shout at at one time cuz i sang the line wrong :P.. big 'oops' LOL. so we were walking home and jack was like 'eh dont walk here ah i kena whack here'.. so we explained to Halim what happened even the paramore stuff and as usual,he has issues with paramore or something..

Halim: the thing is,dont walk in dark places alone and dont listen to ur mp3 in this type of place
Jack: yeah i was listening to paramore..
Halim: dont listen to songs ESPECIALLY PARAMORE in these places.. see i told you paramore is bad.. its paraSOL
me: what in the hell is paraSOL?? what you have against paramore man :/.
Halim: see paramore is so bad,that jack kena whack. see lah i told you already paramore is no good..because of paramore he kena whack. plus the singer looks like a bimbo also.
me: fuck off ah she where got bimbo..stop blaming the music and tell me what the hell is paraSOL?!

so it went on and on about how stupid paramore was etc etc (as usual) and i couldnt care less either AHAHA.too tired to make him pissed :P..so sat down and talked about stuff..from guitar octaves to what i would want to name my child in the future when i get married AHAHA to girl's PMS :X. took pics to show off our guitars too..lol weird sia take out guitar on those hall downstairs thingy.. and yeah i always wanted to name my daughter (if i do have in the future), Julie Estelle..Nice right?! or maybe something like Claire..dunno how those 2 names somehow came to my mind..but the Julie Estelle is a good name so hopefully i do get a daugther in the future AHAHA ahead planning seh... :P yeah so Halim wasnt exactly sure what PMS was and he ask bio student who talks crap alot so... i said this. :D

"Once every month, a PMSing woman turns into a dog-like creature like a werewolf capable only of eating, sleeping, barking, annoying the neighbors, and leaving messes that she expects you to clean up.There's a time in the month when a woman gets super human strength, moodswings and becomes extremely cranky and annoying.If you have a girlfriend and suddenly she becomes extremely annoying and angry at you when you did nothing wrong at all, that must mean shes going through a PMS.If she is having a period, prepare for her to become an insensitive piece of shit that annoys you until your head explodes, and the worst of it is that you will have to forgive her about that because shes having a goddam period."

Only because its true :P.. AHAHA. ok enough of the bullshit.. yes thats for the guys out there who dont know whats up with your girlfriend if shes all suddenly moody.. please dont be a jerk and be mean to her okay cuz then she'll just be a bigger bitch to you :).other than that,this also MAY happen to you :P

Girl: I hate you!
Boy: What did I do?
Girl: Oh my god, I love you!
Boy: What?

other than that,if shes just being angry at ya most of the times,my guess is that shes just being plain ol' mean.BOTTOM LINE: if shes having PMS,better start running :(.. you know to think of it..we guys need some warning sign or something when a girl gets PMS so we can get a headstart on running away AHAHA..ok dont do that thats just mean.. ok i feel weird talking about PMS during Xmas so yeah hahaa im gonna skip that part :P dadadada i dont feel like going any further. OH YEAH! my mom introduced me this song from an indo band called peterpan.. yeah i know i dont exactly listen to indo songs that much but its amazing ah really good song. i heard the song but when finding the youtube video to post is here,the video is even better :P. except for the fight scene,amateurs.. ok so anyways even if you dont understand what the hell the song means,the video kinda links to the song..ok scratch that,the video links to the song like hell. anyways you ppls will love it :D.. time for me to show u ppls how indo's really look like :P good song! enjoy guys!! maybe i should change the song in my blog soon eh..well we'll see how CHOCOLATE TIME!! WOOO!! lets see how fast i can finish em all :D. do check out the video alright, nite ppls :)

Peterpan - Tak Bisakah

ahhh holy sheet!! mua gots zé ulcerrr

omg. first of all MY ULCER ******* hurts like a son of a...... just HURTS!! !@#$%^..
didnt sleep for like 24 hours and counting now. uhh.. and i got jamming in 3 or 4 hours time. Affie dropped by my house last night at around 9 plus nearing 10 :D..taught her some basic stuff of how to play the guitar but didnt have enough time ah..but atleast she learnt a couple of things.. so its no loss :)

Jamming in 3-4 hrs time + 24 hours of not sleeping + ulcer + lots of thoughts = me going crazy soon weeeeeeee.. **knocks head**. cant sleep yesterday cuz had to learn 'whatsername - greenday' cuz jack ask me to play the lead and sing it while he play drums. dont get me wrong i love the song,its good and it fits my voice if I sing it but dont tell me last minute ah.. :(. we had like this choice of songs like everyone get to pick what song they wanna play.. i wanna play either pieces by sum 41 or my heroine,jack wants to play whatsername,halim wants to play....... some weird ass song that its very hard for me to sing. halim listens to weird songs man.. :} ahaha he'll probably kill me if he read that.Mizi cant come for this week cuz he got work so yeah only 3 ppl.

randomness: im getting fairer day by day YAY!! finally getting back to my original skin colour before i played soccer. everyone seems to agree that im getting whiter each week :D..like white like chinese ah! serious! and I owe that all to my lovely mom :). THANK YOU FOR BEING INDO-CHINESE!! my dad ah..different story on skin colour..lol.. lucky for me and sis,we follow mom's skin so we're fair..bad thing for bro cuz he follow dad's skin.. boohoo :P

well im pretty much swaying left and right while typing this..too tired..i have to atleast get some rest.but before that i wanna talk about something funny and freaky :/. the 2 girls working at the bubble tea store is getting freakier everytime i go buy :(((.flirt for the first time ok ah i keep quiet wah then now give free bubbletea.. ok well except for the free bubbletea part,thats good :P but kns no need to touch me ah.. WHAT IS THIS?!! eee freaky ah..it just gets irritating and well..FREAKY!! remind me not to go buy bubble tea for atleast a few days.. safety precautions :P.
man got raped by lady before u know.. MAN u know MAN!! You know ANOT?!!

cheywahhh **dead tone**.. i gotta sleep now guys.. or else im gonna sound like a robot later..i'll update later or something if i have the energy to alright guys,and ill try to take pics too :P. wish me luck! :D..hopefully I dont get scared everytime i try to sing to ppl.... :(.

ps salihah on my tagboard,everyone loves paramore :D!! i love paramore too! HAHA! :D. paramore is gooood

let us SCREAM,aim and FIRE!

hey guys :)... sry if i havent been updating but its either im too busy,too tired,too emo or just cant be bothered to update haha.. well my days have not been really productive..well its half-half really ah like so-so equal like that ah.. see im not even talking sense -_-.. too tired ahh..but i shall update this for you ppls okay? :). hey atleast im trying ok?! :D just got back from helping Halim shop for some formal clothes for his new job so tired..so i may be talking crap real soon. but ill make this post a long one just cuz i feel like it :D. oh yeah check this awesome pic of the clouds i took few days ago.1 word. BEAUTIFUL.

lets see where to start..ok N lvls. 7 points okay lah i guess. got A1 for english,same with Maria ahaha yay!,A2 for Humanities (yeah ahahaha finally mr siva's stockpile of notes is doing me good),b4 for others. i would've been happier if i got another a2 then atleast 5 points or something. but i guess 7 points is good.besides,7 IS a lucky number :P. Gonna miss the ppls who didnt get to go to sec 5 :(. but whatever happens we'll still be in contact with each other and i hope they dont mix around the wrong ppls in ITE :(. looks like im not gonna sing in class with anul again..sigh. :(.

Jet & Anul(chick magnet ahaha) good friends for 4 years.

Khair and Anul :D.

sho stressed out and jet couldnt give a fuck about things AHAHAH

bah looking at the bright side,atleast got kamal,khair,isaac,,johnson,jasvinny,raudhah,wanjun,maria,natasya,raizal and the others still going to sec 5 :D. that means our sec 5 badge is not gonna be lame yay! hahaha.. atleast still got some people who can DEFINATELY make it fun for the ppls who get to sec 5 :D. speaking of which..our next year's sec 4 badge is SO LAME OMG. wth man. Im gonna kill them if theyre gonna ruin our prom with their lame-ness.ok not all of them but MOST of them.haha i got pissed at mrs chua at the wrong timing lol. ever heard a student shouting and cursing at like 6 teachers cuz they told him that he has to pay 240 bucks at the FINAL minute to receive his results? yep.thats me.i was already pissed about some other things the night before(previous entry) and then this was it.lol.cannot tahan anymore so yeah i snapped.best thing is,DM was there too but he just kept his mouth shut while i go scold everyone there ahaha.been a long since i was THAT pissed.felt good woo.but why lah WHY! why must EVERYONE run away from me when im pissed.its either everyone doesnt talk to me or just try to stay away from me when im pissed?!. wth! lol.i was pissed at mrs chua but not pissed at you guys mah..so no need to worry if i explode infront of you if you tease me just a little bit..even though that happened before :x

Jack playing BF2! :D. beats the hell out of DOTA for sure.

well the ppls who know me well kind of agree that i get pissed rarely but when i do,its really bad ahaha.ok well then skip skip to today.woke up at around 5am and went to play LAN with jack & Halim :X cause me and jack wanted to 'relive the glory days' of us being total geeks and just playing games all day long AHAHAHA. never told u ppls that huh? no wonder we kind of know how the ppls who are addicted to gaming feels like...cuz we were worse than them once! atleast 6-8 hours of gametime per day and longest for me was like 14 hours straight of playing. so we decided to play from 5am to 1pm. 8 hours :P. BF2 is the best game ever oh and CS:Source too! they beat the hell out of dota. Realistic War is much MUCH better than cartoony war which makes no sense :P.besides we love to see blood splatter and kill people again and again just to piss ppl off till they give up so yeah :D. as usual Halim came late..expected. he came around 8 and we just couldnt be fucked to say anything that will try to make him come on time..lol.

anyways jack was assaulted and robbed last week while he was walking home from work :/. so sad man.he said he was listening to paramore shiok already then out of nowhere these 2 guys just started beating him and try to steal his phone,wallet etc.he kena whack so hard got scars all over his face :/.so sad man..can still see his face still got wounds that got abit of blood on it.. :S.eee.worst thing is he got like phobia of going home alone now and I must send him home everytime we go out -_-.sad man..i hope those 2 guys get hit by a car or something.he also say like he saw the 2 guys faces and like can tell they take drugs.scary eh...sad thing for him :/.i wish those guys who robbed him got run over by a truck or something.. those fuckers deserve to die.

on a much lighter note,typing that just now reminds me of a funny convo between me and Halim on the phone few days back. Paramore is awesome ok?!
Halim: eee they playing paramore on the radio now..so lame sia paramore.
me: EH WHAT LAME?! u got listen or not?!
Halim: I no need to listen I can tell its lame ah..
me: You never listen then u say lame.. you lame ah. hence your name HA-LAME. it runs in your blood.Paramore is good okay?!
Halim: fuck off ah. **puts down phone**

AHAHAHAHAHA im so mean :X.but well he deserves it! thats what you get when you diss a band that I like..especially if its good!! :P.tmr i think im gonna clean my room cuz it looks like a pig sty.heh,i can say im officially a pig now :D. i sleep at weird times and my room is a total pig sty. so im a pig! :D.heh pig.. im frickin nocturnal too lol.sleep at 8am wake up at 8-9pm.. ahaha ok ima leave u guys with BULLET FOR MY VALENTINE'S NEW SONG from the coming album 'Scream,aim,FIRE!'. this new song has a 'metallica' feel to it so if u like any song by metallica,you'll love this song..Matt is still putting his legs wide open while playing the guitar but he cant scream that much now..problems with his throat and got operation for it :(((..ahaha i realise something..most of my entry titles have been either song titles or song lyrics so far.. weird. HAHA!
so let us SCREAM,aim and FIRE..as the death toll grows Higher!

>i feel so happy now for no reason ahaha..and im totally forgetting what i said in my last entry.maybe i was just pissed...but not now :D.Christmas is coming in 4 days? so Merry Christmas in advance everyone :). hopefully santa claus will bring you ppl presents k? :D. nite guys :).im gonna collapse on my bed now weeeeeeeeee..

keep bending, he wont possibly snap!

ugh.. totally bad mood now. what the fucking hell man all i wanted to say was sorry and to apologise for all the shit that ive caused.. All i got was someone being a total ass. oh so its wrong now for someone to apologise or what? to a point where I cant even fucking apologise..now thats just plain fucking degrading.apparently its wrong to just be friends ah knn.. yeah this is me,fucking pissed off. Its like im trying to be friendly but someone's actions arent exactly making me go friendly. and I dont wanna lose a very good friend either,if you know what i fucking mean. which is why im trying to do this. Its not often that i gather up my courage and really say what i mean to her. like WTF, its not like im asking her to say yes,im actually apologising.. DOES IT LOOK LIKE IM TRYING TO GET HER TO SAY YES RIGHT NOW?!.. now if that was a normal person,i wouldnt give a flying fuck and literally take my shoe and throw at the face.. but this is kinda like a special friend. ok chill herrizal..relax... oh god i FUCKING HATE being pissed off. and i Dont wanna do something i'll regret like shit later on..so many choices,each with its own pro's and con's. yet i still think thats too harsh for her.. why would I wanna say harsh things that will piss off and hurt a friend so bad that she'll hate me forever?especially if she is a good friend and all. its not like ive been treated like rubbish right.. riiiiiiight.. yeah thats it.

ARGH.now i dont wanna piss/hurt anyone especially her but things are just pissing me off so bad.its like we can settle this in a peaceful way but nooooo~ lets do this in a way that in the end,we both end up hating each other.. ARGH.fucking retarded..so pissed right now.. weird thing is before that, Milan won 4-2 at the world club cup FINALS. AFTER 'that' happened, Liverpool fucking lost against Man Utd. Torres couldnt score for shit. Chelsea lost against Arsenal. Sheva couldnt score for shit too. fucking hell. tell them to kick their own balls cuz they fucking suck too. oh god.

keep on bending someone,no matter how strong/persistent he is,eventually he'll snap..fucking right to the core. sometimes i wonder,why am i so friendly to ppl at times.. so close to snapping right now.. sigh.

edit:11am now. well atleast i got my point across yesterday.. feel so much better now. all i said to her was the truth. no lies. sigh.. its all up to her really if she wanna end few years of friendship just like that. Ive done enough and more than enough so now theres nothing I can do so its all up to her.. im not gonna take my results while being angry or with a clouded mind ok so all the best for ur N lvl results guys :)