trying to fit in where I dont belong

hello ppls! :D. So prelims are starting next week and im feeling quite nervous about it. Its like what? 8 weeks to O's? not much time left. anyways mdm hartati dissected a frog for Bio lesson on thursday. It was gross and the whole lab smelled like a fish market. oh my goodness, the stench was unbearable! I think some of us including me wanted to puke but somehow we held it back. At first I thought mdm hartati like took a knife and slashed on the frogs while they were alive. That would be so cruel! :( thankfully she told us that the frogs were dead before she dissected them. well heres a pic from raudha's blog. its damn disgusting ah :/

omg eww. eh I feel abit nauseous by just looking at the pic :x. nonetheless, bio is still an interesting subject. its not everyday that you get to dissect a frog. after that we learned about genes. im pretty sure you guys dont know this but my skin used to be damn white when I was small because I followed alot of my mom's traits. unfortunately I got a little tan because I played soccer alot when I was young. so I asked mdm hartati whether or not in the future when I have kids, will the genes follow the colour of my skin when I was born. She said that genes do not change upon ageing so it follows the intial skin colour. So that means if I do have my own family in the future, my kids are NOT gonna be tan. YAY :D. you dont know how happy I was when she told me that AHAHA! :D ok that reminds me of something funny. I woke up on 715 am that day and miraculously I managed to reach school just before the bell rang. can you believe it? I had to run like mad while carrying my VERY LIGHT bag. pfft. so much for very light. kamal told me this during morning assembly. ok well it might not be funny to you but it IS funny to me hahahha :D.

kamal: eh why you run to school? you think you're Usain Bolt ah?
me: of course. cant you tell broke that I broke the world record?! :D
kamal: -.-

last thing for the night before I go to bed. Normally people would go through the O's with the support of their friends but for me it just seems like I have to go through this by myself. im not trying to be overly dramatic but that is really how I feel right now. its so frustrating for me at times. sometimes I do get upset but I try my best to hide it. I talked to mizi about this last night and he gave me quite a good advice so atleast im feeling abit better now. still, it sucks so bad to be alone. its like nobody is there help you out. I just have to keep on going I guess.

I have to go to bed now because I have a match in 8 hours time. we're playing against some team at Jurong East at 930am. I hope I can play well tmr even though I dont have that much stamina now. oh yeah, and im running for the relay on teachers day too. damn it lah how come theres no 100m :(. oh well im gonna go to sleep now,
gnite ppls! :D