Life is precocious in a most peculiar way

Muahaha.. so ive been working these few days with my dear mom at M1 Jurong East Industrial Park and so far it has been great :D. you'll agree why i say it has been great when you read this:
so basically what i do is:

1. Arrange Files/Books/Wipe mom's table/clean up her place
2. Tidy up every single drawer she has/throw unwanted shit
3. Entertain her for awhile cuz 'we need more bonding' pfft :P
   
4. do ABSOLUTELY nothing when you're done
5. Get Freeeeeeeee food/Swensens Ice Cream/Free drinks/Cookies etc whenever i want :D
6. best part is: I GET PAID HAHAHA. 40 bucks a day, 7 to 4. who WOULDNT want to go?

Yep.thats my job :D.Speaking of ice cream,can you believe that i can finish 1 big tub of ice cream at my working place in just 2 days? :P.heres the proof:

Swensens GOOOOOOOOOOOOD
i love my mom so much :D.and the cafeteria food is damn nice too..so no problems with food there.oh did i mention that i can sleep too? lol. i slept from 1130 till 1 cause mom was in a meeting and i got nothing to do.. my mom's so cute she wrote a note and pasted on my phone when i was asleep..

"busy meeting,go get yourself some food when you're awake.oh and you look like a corpse when you're asleep :-)" she even took photo LOL.hahaha so cute lah my mom..


Cafeteria food was pretty good.The sweet and sour fish damn power :P.hahah and the place looks good too.

so i met this office girl while having lunch named "Lena". Very pretty :P. so so this and that,she asked questions and somehow i go to sit down and have lunch with her.i guess she knows my mom well and she asked like why work this and that..

me: "oh im just doing this to get an electric guitar,normally i couldnt be bothered but must lah."
she:"hari raya money not enough?"..
me:"No,only 70 bucks :(".
she:"last time when i was small,CNY i always get like 300 plus..lowest is 100 plus,highest is 500 plus nearly 600.now big already must give..aiyo so troublesome"
me:"whoa..my highest i have ever gotten is like 200 plus? lowest is 17 dollars."
she: HAHAHAH 17 bucks? serious?
me: yeah.17 bucks can blanja you go movie.i think also not enough. 9.50 per ticket.somemore 2 tickets.yeah sure i wait outside while the other person go watch the movie.
she: aiyoooo,hari raya haji i give you ok? :)
hahahahaha i do wonder at times how i get to talk to ppl so easily.even strangers :|

so yeah me and jack were planning to make a new band. its more of a side-project from jack cuz he already has his own band. BUT we're still talking about it.. and so far its only me and him. He ask me to be vocalist but im too scared of what ppl will think lah.. aiyo.. he goes all like "dont care about what ppl think lah dont worry. JUST SING.it'll be great.serious.besides u sing all the time to me what" dunno lah see how,hes bassist,im guitarist..we'll see how when i get my electric guitar soon. besides i need A HELL of alot of motivation to actually sing to many ppl lol.. maybe something/someone special can motivate me yeah? lets hope so :)
ESP LTD or Ibanez? :( i dunno which to choose.. LTD has some BEAUTIFUL designs and the sound is pretty good. i dunno we'll see how :)..i'll drool over "LTD F-400FM" if i got it for my bday HAHAHAHAH.time to use some sweet talking against mah sistaaa :P i got work tmr so i gotta go sleep.besides this is getting a little too long so..

Nite ppls!

was it all too much? or just not enough?

and thats why Andriy Shevchenko is my idol :D :D.. SHEVA!!!
ok so as promised,im gonna update :D
Chelsea vs Schalke [2-0] Malouda,Drogba,
AC Milan vs Shaktar Donetsk [4-1] Gilardino (2), Seedorf (2)
Arsenal vs Slavia Prague [7-0]Cesc Fabregas(2),Walcott(2),Alexander Hleb(1),Bendtner(1).. and 1 own goal.

im so pissed at the new chelsea manager cuz HE DIDNT PUT BALLACK AND SHEVCHENKO WTF?he put sheva at the 87th minute..yeah 3 mins can really do damage to the other team..bring back the mourinho as manager so i can see more ballack and shevchenko actually playing >:(
but kaka' did well for the AC match.. kudos to him :D

so on the way to gombak,saw some swiss cottage and dunearn girls in the bus..some very pretty LOL..i guess they were going for their O lvls..some of them cheekily smiling at me and giggling with the friends.. so i smile also lah! lol.. then theres this auntie who sit beside me,malay..she was like "excuse me,can move in abit?" i think she thought im not malay LOL.. i couldnt care about speaking a word.so when it was my bus stop i said this: "eh makcik, saye nak kelua ah,bole move sikit?..:)" she was like "EH adik melayu eh? HAHA!"
im like ":-) ye cik.".. i turn around to the swiss girl who was pretty and like she and her friends look at me and giggle,smiled at me and blabbered something in chinese to her friend then smiled again. :P. HAHAHA it felt so funny inside.. but i feel like im betraying myself by doing so.. only 2 people know what the hell im talking about :). dunno lah.. its a personal thing :P besides im very bad at moving on & forgetting bad events....... whatever lah
[SO STOP ASKING ME TO GET A GIRL,thanks :)]

Went to play soccer with Pei Xiang,wan,his friend,halim and halim's friends at gombak ..Halim came late cuz he was practising his guitar for some performance.. played with some ppls and at one point pei xiang kinda argued with halim's friend imran for eh like unintentional accident but i got pei xiang to chill abit and cheer up cuz u know i hate ppl fighting..
(cheywah ahah look whos talking)
but in the end i got both ppls to forget about it and play soccer cuz this things always happen what!
soccer is to make friends ppl not to fight! :D
overall it was ok EXCEPT FOR THE FACT that pei xiang & wan f'ing had to shoot the ball so hard for like..ALOT of times towards me!! 3 shots to the chest,2 to the back,5 to the right leg,1 to the FACE.. knn
my right leg frickin hurts like hell.. half of the right foot is like.. Blue-Black thanks to both of them nvm nvm next time.. :P

soon after pei xiang shot the water at me..then all hell breaks loose :P
.. then went to to 8th story carpark and used the firehose..intially wanted to wash our feet cuz of stupid mosquitoes.. but decided to play with the water and ACCIDENTALLY shot the water to someone's window.. :| WASNT ME!
oh and this new song on my blog is NICE!! hahaha it makes me high and just wanna go dance :P :P..
**WHOAAAAAA wont ever give in.. WHOAAAAAA wont ever give up.. WHOOOAAAAAA wont ever give in.. I JUST WANNA BE WANNA BE LOOOOVED** this is gonna be stuck in my head for a while :P

ps: if ur stoning and rotting at home (like me) with nothing to do,do go to movie6.net for FREE streaming movies such as evan almighty,Resident Evil: extinction,bourne,alot more :). keep it a secret alright :)
nite ppls!

tell me how does it feel to be replaced like that?

as far i can tell,its just voices in my head.

ok so havent been updating lately so i'll update now.. its raining now at 2:34am and im pretty sure everyone or mostly everyone is asleep right now..comfy eh? :D.. so im lying on my bed using my laptop,thinking about stuff while listening to "sum 41 - open your eyes".. and well.. its like every single line REALLY relates to the situation..weird but damn true.. ahh..
"this isnt me,this isnt you but its just everything we do.till you open up your eyes and understand this isnt real.this isnt me,this isnt you. this is everything but true. till we come to realize its what we put each other through"
and this final line: " It's hard to believe right now, This seems to be real. Still phasing by this time,so why cant i wake up?"
i guess if you wanna know how i feel right now go search for "open your eyes - sum 41 lyrics".. or better go listen to it :) every single line like..reflects to me! EVERY! haha.. emo emo emo..but its good song...with good meanings.

sunday
- went to swimming with halim and jack..fun stuff.Halim got emo cuz jack was piggyback-ing me and i was swimming frogstyle and when i go up to breathe,the bugger splashed water on my face so i couldnt breathe..TWICE..almost drowned because of halim lol.. :( the back of my head hurts l
like hell cuz jack said lack of air..then halim kena scolding by us then he turned EMO LOL.

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and he was talking about how "glamorous" his red towel is in school and ppl would call him "red towel boy".. glamorous my foot.. :P.. saw Maria at the Jurong East swimming pool,said hello and stuff..met her mom :D very friendly!!went home to get stuff and went to play LAN with jack from 9 till 2am..for old times sake :P.. **ok suddenly after i type this it gets REALLY cold :/**


Today
- woke up with a MOHAWK hair :D :D :D.. IM TELLING YOU PPLS. SHAMPOO MAKES MY HAIR LOOK GAY! SERIOUS! then went to play soccer with some swiss cottage students who were actually halim's friends until 5.played ok-ok but not on form i guess cuz my mind was preoccupied.had some funny moments..and i played rough at once for eh.. personal reasons.Emo boy..
bought water then walked past "the street" where it happened. (nobody except me knows what this exactly this means :P).. so me and halim were at the bus stop..some swiss cottage chinese girl walked past me and looked at me like one of a kind.. got the chills LOL..
so apparently she took the same bus as us and she was staring at me but when i look at her she turn away.. so i messaged halim who was seating far from me, "eh doode,that girl is SERIOUSLY looking at me.. lol", "probably a nutcase".. HAHA.. ok so then i noticed this OTHER swiss cottage chinese girl in the bus looking at me like one of a kind ALSO. i just wanna say "why the hell are you looking at me like THAT?!".. this one lagi worse.. can smile at me somemore!!! :|.. ok la maybe im just being mean but...dunno lah..weird ppl lol.. (maybe IM weird eh?)

ok la im not gonna go any further cuz i wanna sleep already and its 317am now..im sure everyone is asleep or something right now.. **ooh its raining again :D yay gonna go sing to the rain and reminisce.. and think about "stuff".** other than that, nite ppls and sweet dreams to everyone,especially to you know who :).
'i cant wait to see you smile,wouldnt miss it for the world'

satisfaction guaranteed,a pillow-weight catastrophe!

SUM 41 IS AWESOME!!

Thats Deryck Whibley & Avril Lavigne on their wedding.Gotta give credit for Deryck Whibley's voice..VERY unique.he sounds ALOT like Tom Delonge from blink 182..
so apparently Deryck wrote my fav song, "with me" for Avril Lavigne..
"these words are my heart and soul"
no wonder haha! so sweet lah..you guys should listen to it.Awesome song.Speaking of songs..maybe i should change the song in my blog eh?i feel like its getting a lil old.. haha!

"Think before you make up your mind.."

so cancelled soccer cuz it was raining heavily.. normally i couldnt care less if it was raining but there was lightning so... :( went prayers with mizi..talked and talked..Seriously people!Mizi is THE person to talk to.He knows ALOT of shit :)..went to BP to buy food..then sent mizi home.. on the way home saw hafiz..talked cock for abit..
THEN suddenly when walking with him i fell on my ass and everything just started getting giddy and dark.damn headache..probably stressed or something LOL! (ok i dunno why im laughing but still it IS a lil funny.).. so he sent me home cuz he was afraid i would faint or something on the way home.. lol..good friend :D.. called mom and took medicine..got drowsy and collapsed on my bed.. woke up around 8? started singing sum41 songs and eating chocolate from then till now :P..

everyone knows how much of a choc lover i am :P.. so my neighbour gave us a box of godiva chocolates.. (its from greece).. its nice but not nicer than german choc "ritter sport".. now THAT one is awesome :P.. so im just trying to forget everything cuz im sick right now and i think that its because im stressed up? HAH! who gets stressed AFTER the exams????? ok apparently i do.but sick people are not supposed to each chocolate and sleep at 3am right?.. no wonder i get sick :P



Haha my room is so messy..gotta start cleaning it tmr i guess... HAHA i love my hair when its fluffy :D.

so its 3+ now..stomach aint feeling well again.. medicine really kicking in..so i'll try to make this fast........ ok thats it i gotta sleep..cannot tahan!!
do listen to the sum 41 song "with me" alright ppls? gnite ppls AND WE'RE OFF TO NEVER NEVER LAND! **headbangs**

edit: ok so apparently i cant sleep with an empty stomach so i decided to order Mac..Big Breakfast,bagel meal & sausage mcmuffin.. and theres 2 meals so that means 2 iced milo's :P..so i just used like 16 bucks just on breakfast HAHAHA nvm..for food its always ok :P.. im gonna turn into a pig soon if i keep going on like this haha.. eat alot.wake up late.. heh. pig reminds me of something funny that happened once that had to do with waking up late :)....haha pig...heh

ok so not trying to freak you ppls out but i SERIOUSLY just saw something flying past my window and its 5am now..it was just at the edge of my eye.. i didnt care to look at it but it was flying SLOW.. and it was white..like cloth u know..Slow moving cloth! eeeeeeeeeeeeee puasa over already so hell gate's are open..hahaha k lah i should go to sleep now.. pig shall go to sleep cuz he cannot tahan. (for real)

"Seems like everything we knew
Turned out were never even true
Somehow it's different everyday
In some ways it never fades away
Seems like it's never gonna change
I must be dreaming (dreaming, dreaming)"

Bullet with no Valentine.

off topic: My fifa street 2 guy is F'ING handsome lol.. i wanna be like him in the future HAHAHAHA..hes WAY better than my previous one..tattoos everywhere even at the forearm/back.. somemore not wearing a shirt..everyone would be scared if someone like him played soccer LOL :P(ok maybe hes a lil fat..but i'll tone him down a lil :P) he looks like deco from portugal :D

I havent been updating for quite some time now so ima update it now :D.. been busy these few days.. Hari raya was a blast cuz i got closer to my couzzies and it was something special with them :D.. Im telling you my couz abg sidi looks like criss angel if he lets his hair down.. MALAY VERSION! haha ill upload the pics soon.. then went to town with jack and halim.. met jack's bandmates Timmy and Jimmy.. big and tall ppls..went to penny to look at guitars and went jamming with them for a while.. lol but they're fun people to be with. then went to cuppage.. this and that.. oh ya and i bought a chain & a bullet :P.. i wanted to find a Bullet for my Valentine dogtag but so far cant find it.. so typically its just Bullet now with no valentine.. with no valentine.. :(

so on the way back we decided to take the LONG way to our houses by walking around west view.. i tell you that place attracts my eyes or something.everytime i pass there i will stone for a few mins.. reminiscing about the past.
haha and i was listening to "with me - sum 41" so it was kinda emotional lol.. lyrics + image = not good.

last storey,classroom nearest to the main staircase,window closest to the front of the classroom.. facing the teacher's room.. good memories.. good memories.. stoned at the staircase for about 5 minutes thinking about stuff then decided to leave.went home straight then this and that.. nothing much to say haha..tmr gonna go play soccer like crazy at either pending/gombak/yew tee..dunno lah see if anyone wants to go with me..been a while since ive played soccer anyways.I wanna see the look on the "mat rep's" faces when we beat them MUAHAHAHAH..too much Fifa Street 2 i guess haha..
i guess im in a druggy mood so i have nothing exciting to talk about.. so HERES THE BULLET. :D

I'm falling away,away from your arms..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA :DDDD

Finally!No more fasting yay!! :).. tmr is the first day of hari raya.. and that means.. good food,kuih's,delicacies,$$$ :P. haha cant wait to go out with my schoolmates :D.. i sense something good's going to happen soon hahaha! Anyways woke up today at 5pm.. sick ah.. stupid dad brought his flu to me..Helped my mom & bro to clean the house.. damn tiring.. ahh! but still we were pissed at dad cuz he was being an ass by lazing around.. excuse is that hes sick.. this happened lol..

me: wtf..why he sit there do nothing when we got alot of things to do?

bro: he say he sick..but you also sick but can do work.. so WTF?
mom: hes not sick...sickENING.. :) lazy pig.. he cacat(retarded) what..everyone must help him do work
me & bro: HAHAH

and this also happened during dinner lol..
me: dont put that much food on my plate lah i cant eat that much
bro: ya lah.. let him put by himself.. hes not retarded
dad: nvm eat..
mom: eh stupid,dont put that much food on his plate.Hes not like you,mouth like longkang,anything give also eat..give shit also eat.idiot..
me: **whoaa** HAHAHAHAHAH
bro: **??????**

and so mom is pissed at dad for being a lazyass the whole day HAHAHA.. serves him right..
HAHAHAH i just remembered,yesterday while riding my bro's bike..his slippers fell on the road and he was like "EH GO GO TAKE NOW FASTER GOT BUS GOT BUS"
so i was like dodging vehicles just to take his stupid slipper.. lol.. idiot! anyways my house is pretty much done now,new look :).. whoever coming to my house this year,you'll see lah i guess :) haha..

anyways i was just thinking about how years passed and i just cant move on from some people & stuff.how ive always been patient and determined. sad ah like even if you try so hard,you wont get past square 1.and everyone's forcing you to move on when you just dont want to. Im regretting how like i never grab an opportunity when it shows up..now i have to dread for it..pretty much sucks.also ive been thinking about how a good friend ive been to many ppl and it all goes down the drain at times.I can still remember the days when im mean but blah..i dont want to be like that again.now when anyone is mean to me i'll just be smiling and in my heart,i always know that i can be meaner than him/her. :)..trust me i can :).its really amazing that what means little to you now,may mean alot in about 5 years time.oh its true :(.i miss those old memories.

doesnt it suck when you put everything on the line just to be happy? then you find that its not gonna happen after a long time of trying? its not that you want more,its just that you're never gonna get it.effort gone down the drain man. haha im being emo again.. slow recovery process.its really hard to forget something that meant the world to you once.you know what i mean.OR even better! people have distorted sense of taste.. lol SO MEAN LAH.. also ive been thinking how over the past years i changed ALOT. i used to look like an idiot (no offence :P) but i changed so much.. and it all went down the drain! you guys know me well,2 years ago and me now, is WAY different right? haha! inside and outside.i just hope that theres a way for me to finally grab the opportunity once and for all.

bah too emo lah..i shouldnt be emo at this time.its HARI RAYA :D.. happy time!and looking at the bright side,i can finally play soccer in peace cuz fasting is over.. well ppls its 2:35am and im tired..off to bed! :) nite ppls :) ima upload the pics of my house soon!

"I never thought that this could go
And take me away from all I know
And leave me to think I'm on my own
But your love will take me, you were the one...

...Who sat through nights
You held me tight
And made sure I'm okay
And I thank you for the love you gave to me"

haha sounds ALOT like me...

Burn Baby Burn

Im pretty much in a bad mood and disgusted right now.. i'll explain later. :(
anyways the day started with me waking up at 830am? to open the door for halim..He came to use my computer and to pay back for my broken guitar string that he broke.so anyways i let him in and i went back to sleeping.. last thing i know he did is fix the string..then suddenly.. **twoink**

me(in sleepy/grumpy manner): wth?
him :...........silence.............. KNN CCB WHAT THE ****.. STUPID MOTHER ******..F*CK THIS GUITAR MAN! WASTE MY MONEY.
me: ???.. **looks at guitar**.. OH! HAHAHAHAHAH. nice one. **goes back to sleep**
him: IM TELLING YOU THIS GUITAR IS CURSED MAN I BUY THIS STRING.. QUALITY STRING..HAVENT EVEN PLAY AND THE STRING BROKE. WTF? 2ND TIME U KNOW!
me: it probably just hates your hand.
him: (-_-)


haha poor halim..he sincerely wanna pay back for the string then skali the string snapped..who wouldnt be pissed? :P?

Random thought of the day: I feel like my skin changes it fairness according to the weather.. SERIOUS! no joke.its like when its damn hot outside,but im inside building you know,i turn dark brown.. but when its rainy/at night or cold weather, i turn fair or at times, Pale white.. no joke no joke! serious! its probably my skin's pigmentation or something.

halfway in the noon,mom took day off cuz she was sick.. then i helped her clean the house,wipe/mop/vacuum/wash plate/throw trash/arrange some stuff.. hope she gets well soon :).. love her alot :)
then went to play pool with pei xiang & jack..almost got into a fight with this 1 fat dude who was watching the shop cuz out of nowhere he scream at us.. so anyways went home with jack..k NOW THE DISGUSTING PART.

how would you feel,if you were eating ice cream..oo soo nice..then out of NOWHERE,a cockroach came flying to YOUR FACE just beside ur ice cream?i didnt notice it until jack told me lol.

me: wth whos wire sia hit my face
jack: cockroach lah i saw it flying around near us.
me: **spits out ice cream** EEE WTF MAN KNN I'LL F'ING KILL THAT COCKROACH CCB KNN PIECE OF ****. if he ever reincarnate into a human or something he OR his children will be born retarded I TELL YOU! KNN
jack: hahahah chill ah its only cockroach
me: SEE LAH NOW I NO MOOD TO EAT **throws away ice cream**

omg i dont even know if that bugger touched my ice cream or not.. :(.. haha ive always been scared of cockroaches since young.. like earlier last month i accidentally stepped on one while barefooted in my kitchen.. it was alive but it couldnt move.. i was SO pissed i tell you.. i took my air freshener and saw the "Flammable,Do not expose to Fire" sign and took a lighter. :).. mother fker got burnt and i just left it there and ask my dad to throw it outside.. lol
k lah maybe im cruel :P.. but i seriously hate them.. ARGH! im being such a woman hahaha..

after that,sent jack home then i also went home.. pretty much the end of the day.
Moral of the story: never ever EVER piss me off when im eating or trying to eat. you'll end up like the cockroach that got barbecued in my kitchen :)

that pretty much sums up my whole day,till then, nite ppls :)

"but dreams are so intoxicating,when you're doing this alone"

Well its 3:15am in the morning and i just got back about an hour ago?Played pool with Danial,Halim & Pei Xiang.. won 3 times,lost once :).. im getting better yay!Dan accidentally hit the black ball like.. 4 times?.. how ironic is that he also hit the black ball 4 times,4 days ago,at the SAME table. haha oooo twilight zone~
On the way back me & Halim were singing A7X songs, "chapter four","i wont see you tonight","Unholy Confessions".. haha i tell you it was awesome :D.. we were singing while dan was being left out LOL..we sang all the way from ten mile to BP mac,to jelapang.. ALL the way :P. and i was singing the first two verses of "gone so young" by Amber Pacific..good song,good meaning :). My voice suits the song well :) cheywahh.. haha!

Anyways got back at about 2 and my bro asked me to sit down and talk to him..at first i was like "wtf?" but it was about his gf ah.. so i give advice this and that..hang on bro dont ever give up :).atleast you got gf! shes a pretty girl,take good care of her k? :)
so anyways i have been pretty much singing the whole day.. BFMV, "all these things","tears dont fall" and my fav "Hit the Floor"(its on the page btw).. also sang senses fail - calling all cars and amber pacific - gone so young.. yah im listening to gay songs right now ok cuz they mean alot to me right now :P.. soon then i shall go back to metal!! **headbangs**
but yeah the song by senses fail and amber pacific really do mean alot to me :).songs do carry hidden meanings dont they? haha! its all in the lyrics :).heres an obvious tip,if you wanna know what the person is feeling/thinking,listen to the lyrics to they song they always listen to.. MOST of the times,it does paint a big picture,if you know what i mean :).. i feel like i wanna sing amber pacific - gone so young next year lol..but scared lah!bah..maybe ah? haha!


anyways ive been thinking about seriously moving with my sis to the states after sec 5.so i gave her a call and she told me that she supported it all the way.but theres a catch.

3 choices
1. Do sec 5,finish O's,do SAT exam (exam to get into university,my sis says its easy),apply for student visa,HOUSTON BABY!
2. Do sec 5,finish O's,go NS,do SAT while doing that,2 years then poof, HOUSTON!!
3. Do sec 5,finish O's,wait 1 year so i turn 18,go to the USmarines (lol).. its my dad's great idea for me to go to army.. EH HELLO i know u sergeant lah no need to make me into a killing machine like you.. because he say if i join the marines,sg government cannot pull me back into SG :D.. to think of it.. it would be awesome also..but i'll miss everyone here lah :(

so whatever you want to say/do to me or with me,do it by 1 year ok?dont malu malu ah or not no more time :P LOL.ok lah,i'll leave you guys with "Amber Pacific - Gone so Young".. listen and you'll know why i like this song right now :P.. the senses fail song is my in friendster lazy lah i wanna go paste the shit here..till then,Nite and tc ppls! :)

Liberate your minds

I'll try to make this next entry shorter alright?:) anyways i woke up at 1030am with a red eye it was raining heavily so i slept until 5:30 :P
Aircon,16 degrees + Rain + Metal Fan = sleeping in peace :D
SO,apparently my mom tried to hide the hari raya cookies from ME! hahahaha.. nice try mom trying to keep it at the wardrobe.haha im telling you,my mom gets so pissed at me about the cookies..last year i ate the HONEY CORNFLAKES cookies until it was finished..1 big bottle gone in just 2 days.. and it was only the 2nd week of fasting BTW LOL!. and i had to buy back one big bottle for her -_-.. 24 bucks.. but mmm those cookies were awesome :P.. see those 2 bottles? half full right? yep thats my work :P.. haha shes gonna get so pissed :P



ahh suddenly fairuz's convo with me just popped up :S
him: chill ah bro,theres more fishes in the sea
me: are all fishes unique?
him: SOME are.
me: do you know how hard it is to find a unique one?
him: that i dont know.
me: that you DONT want to know,trust me.

ahh ok ok forget about it
so apparently im trying to forget what happened the previous week,so i turned to my old habit after i never touched it for a year..gaming.. :P
yeah its true it brings you away from people but now that i dont have anybody to get away from,why NOT?! right?! haha! but must control..so anyways i played this game, "25 to Life" on my xbox haha its awesome.. its about being GANGSTA!(with the gangsta accent :P).. haha its a violent game,heads popping,blood,limbs detaching but most importantly it has GUNS!! :D
i'll just let the vids and pics i took do the talking alright? till then,nite ppls :).. ima go play somemore 25 to Life and be Gangsta!








^^ When robbing a bank,do remember to use hostages. =)


- Mess with the wrong people,this will happen.














Mess with even wrong people who have guns,this WILL happen. poor guy..actually thats my character btw :P


"looks like its flowers and a funeral for you bitch!" <= love this quote "whatever happens,its just me and you against the world" =)

Incisions must be made

so yeah after that emo post,time for something happy HAHA! its 1:45am now but still i can last long so ima give a LONG entry :D. so apparently Anul decided to invite me and jet along to go to GEYLANG! haha i tell you those two guys always cheer me up :) good friends,good friends.. asri was late for 30 mins? and he was the one who asked us to "eh fast game ah meet you at senja" haha.. anyways skip to the bus trip to geylang.. 67..
we go in.. me and asri get to sit down while sad sad anul had to stand far from us. HAHAHA as it stops at bukit timah,wooo alot of those bangladeshi workers start to pour into the bus. and anul was being pissed cuz he cannot tahan the smell.. HAHAH.. he messaged me: "knn i cannot tahan sial like this..one more thing.i CANT smell them,it makes me PENING! (giddy)"

so me and asri replied: "haha lucky me and asri got runny nose..you go try ah lick their armpits..sure got curry chicken taste thats already bad for 1 year"
anul: "puki la."

halfway some dude decides to lunge his ass towards my body cuz i was sitting at the outer part of the sit while asri was inside.. asri was like "eh go in go in"
im like "if this guy fucking drops on my lap..im gonna fucking punch his face.. serious"

so yeah skip to geylang..
anul: "phew..you can feel the change of atmosphere from the bus to now.. ahhh fresh air"
so me and asri helped anul to pick 1 baju kurong.. black colour.. nice and the texture was alright.. then skali no size..then he had to choose purple one.. SORRY dude! :(

bought kebab!!!,bandung,burger,chendol alot ah for break fast with them.. then break fast.. asri's chendol was fucking bad.. and he found it out the hard way
asri: eh you smell that or not?
anul: thats the door behind us lah
me: huh?? what? what?!
asri: no lah its this chendol..i think its bad.. **goes on and drinks it** ya lah its bad..knn
anul: then WHY YOU DRINK?
me: WHAT HAPPEN?
asri: you try you try..see if bad or not
anul: you say bad already then still want me to try..eee..
me: what happen?! **at this point nobody seems to care about me lol**

Train ride home hahaha..

we decided to take the long route from marina bay all the way back to CCK. there this happened when we NEARLY stopped at bishan.
MRT: **Next stop.. ISHAK** (its bishan but it REALLY sounds like ishak)
asri: eh kau dengar tak? Aku dengar ISHAK. (eh u hear or not? i heard ISHAK)
me: HAHAH YES.. i was ABOUT to say that.
anul: **silent** **stops at bishan**
me: GET READY GET READY SHH SHH..
MRT: ISHAK!
me & asri: HAHAHAHA SEE SEE SEE ITS ISHAK HAHAHA.. i didnt know ishak so rich ah got his own MRT station
anul: kepala buto lah u all
[if you guys dont know,ishak is anul's dad hahaha]
hahaha then we made anul pissed off like hell..still i cannot forget this..
asri: ahah kiss this.. AMERICAN DOLLAR! **takes out $1 USD**
me: eleh.. see this.. AMERICAN DOLLAR! **takes out 5 $1 USD**.. eh why mine smells and feels like seaweed sia.. eh wah look at my ez photo man..sec 1 photo and my sec 4 photo.. ahah i look so different.
asri: ya lah last time u sec 1,you like an idiot..with the stupid hair
me: EH NOW CHANGE ALREADY OK?!
asri: oh so now cool ah now? haha!
me: of coz..not like anul over there. :P
anul: WHAT LAH. asri & me: HAHAHA

and we saw... MRS CHUA'S LONG LOST TWIN! HAHAH look at the pics :)

alot more happened but im too lazy to type more :P.. they both dropped at phoenix while i went home.. :) its great going out with them haha..we should do it more often. and yeah i felt a little iffy when i saw some couples being so loving :( :(.. slowly.. step by step i shall be happy :D.. oh ya heres the pics that we took :D.. Bye and nite ppls! :).. whoever who havent bought their baju kurong and dunno what colour to choose.. CHOOSE BLACK. matching with me.. haha :P

i kept my word and you hate me for it now~

This is just an entry for saturday..i was lazy to make a blog then but i did wrote it all in notepad so yeah here it is :).

Well alot has happened recently and i know that its kind of a bad start to start off your blog with an emo/whiny entry but heck,it doesnt matter..Besides im in the mood to give an extremely long entry.First of all history paper was tough but still i remembered whatever mr siva taught me in class and it wasnt that hard to get all the ideas :D.. just took me 15 mins to actually recall everything back to my head -_-.. but still it went well :).. F&N paper was suprisingly easy..kinda happy with that.. :D

anyways alot of shit happened recently which is kind of the equivalent of a gunshot to my face.still i cant believe this is the end..some of you may or may not know what's happening but trust me,you dont wanna know. :(
seriously,it sucks to be totally crushed and unintentionally stepped on.i knew it that "the day" would either be my best day or my worst day so far..and it turned out to be the WORST day ever.period.i just felt like an idiot after what happened.2 years of my life going down the drain..i dont even know why i bothered in the first place because i always had a feeling that this MAY happen but i just kept denying it.Worst thing after getting ur heart broken is to get ur heart stepped on unintentionally.I know what's going on but whatever you said pretty much killed me inside..not trying to be emo but its kinda true.2 years of dreading if this day will ever come..and it came..and it turned out worse than dreading if the day will ever come..

why the hell did i want a day that turned out to be the WORST day of my life?

ooohh but mr smart guy over here always denies the fact that you cannot expect someone else to do something after all you've done.like i said,i always knew it that this may happen..but still i always deny it..because i believed it wont happen.I know its always hard to talk to someone after 5 years of not talking to each other.but still i remember the nights i spent not sleeping,just thinking of her.saying sorry to god knows who and forever hating myself for not getting in contact..but after 2 years of hell trying to search,FINALLY i got her contact back. and i even have to hate someone i dont want to hate just to get to her.yeah i know,im the idiot here.times when i felt like giving up,almost everyone asked me to at times..but i never did..until now.I have absolutely no idea when im whining but it just feels great to let it all out :).. but still why am i doing this? you wont even fucking read this and even if you did,im pretty sure you couldnt care less. After all that happened,im pretty fucking sure that you wouldnt even care. You're right,why am i even bothering? you know why? because i care from last time. and i still do.

Bleh,i shall stop my emo-ing right now.its affecting me a little.. no its affecting me ALOT. i fucking stone at the sky for atleast 5 hours for the past few days listening to songs,become pissed at everyone for no reason [sorry mom & dan you got it the worse :(].but still,i cant believe that i actually expected something different to happen. HAH. as if.whatever you did really hurt me alot,but i knew that if you would say that,i would be emo and shit.. but i NEVER expected you to really downright kill me inside. yeah,it did hurt me alot when you told me that.but it fucking killed me when you had no idea what you were talking about.i shall stop now..the left side at the back of my head is getting numb and cold thinking about this stuff..also i havent been talking sense to people lately.so i think i need to give my brain a rest.its been hell for it lately :P..
the quotes of whatever the hell you said still flies around in my brain,i can never forget that.

"eh omg i cannot look at your face" <= wtf man?
"it cant happen",'why?' "because it just WONT happen"
"why you bother wasting your time with me?" <= also wtf?

I learned that: "its amazing how even when you have no idea what you're talking about,it may hurt someone real bad" but well..whatever happened is the past.i gotta stop being EMO.i can NEVER change it and i wish you happy belated bday :).i just hoped that you wont be too affected by it just like i am.just blame it all on me,even though i may or may not be the cause of this,just blame it on me alright.stay happy and always stay the cute girl you always have been :)

on the BRIGHT side haha.. finally got my room to be painted a new colour than that sissy pink colour.. -_-
here are the pics :D..