bye bye, tokyo boy.

Bye bye Isa, have fun in Tokyo! He's going there 1 week with his classmates.. waah. so cool! I wish the we could go overseas together as in our whole group of guys. nvm we already have plans to go to LA together after Poly :D. or maybe somewhere around Australia or Europe. I've never been to Australia before so I dont really know much about it. Some of us(including me) are suggesting Korea or Seoul to be precise. eh, get the cash first! :) A lot of things happened these few weeks but frankly speaking I was never in the mood to talk about it. here i'll try to summarise it for you

- my grandparents almost died in the hospital
- i met up with my dad's side because of that (I didnt see them for 4-5 years)
- my cousins are all grown up now, oh and my grandmom cried when she saw me after a looong time.
- i've been studying with mizi a hell of alot
- my whole family is going to LA for 2 weeks to 1 month on February 2010.
- that means my brother is tagging along so its gonna be OMGWTFAWESOME!!!
- it also means I wont get bullied by my sister to do household chores/wash her car/get scolding for using the pc for too long.... etc. dont remind me.
- we're going to some mountain for skiing and theres gonna be snow!!! :D

I dont know what else to add, eh okay enjoy my cover below. I screwed up the first verse because its supposed to be played with 2 guitars simultaneously. I tried to rush the two chords so I missed some strings in the end. You'll see what I mean. Oh and mizi, do listen to that pinch harmonic towards the end. kthx. :D. okay i'm gonna make another cover, this time a heavier song. Oh yeah you know what's coming.. 'Romance is Dead'!!! Hell no, that song is too hard especially the tapping part near the end. okay i'll see what song is in my ipod.

found a demon in my safest haven

I scraped my knees while I was praying
And found a demon in my safest haven
Seems like it's getting harder to believe in anything
Than just to get lost in all my selfish thoughts

I wanna know what it'd be like
To find perfection in my pride
To see nothing in the light
I'll turn it off, in all my spite
In all my spite, I'll turn it off

And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall
I will realize I'm better off
When I hit the bottom

The tragedy, it seems unending
I'm watching everyone I looked up to break and bending
We're taking short cuts and false solutions
Just to come out the hero

Well, I can see behind the curtain
(I can see it now)
The wheels are cranking, turning
It's all wrong, the way we're working
Towards a goal that's nonexistent
It's nonexistent, but we just keep believing

And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall
I will realize I'm better off
When I hit the bottom

I wanna know what it'd be like
To find perfection in my pride
To see nothing in the light
I'll turn it off, in all my spite
In all my spite, I'll turn it off

Just turn it off.
Again, again, again.

And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall
I will realize I'm better off, when I hit the bottom.

Decode it yourself.

Cousin's outing

we had our first ever cousin's outing just now at 1am in the morning. it was a last minute thing and I was getting bored studying so they picked me up. We went to play bowling at bukit gombak CDANS until 3am and then off to tea garden mcdonalds. talked crap, laughed, watched soccer and more. and omg we saw this group of guys at the mcdonalds bringing along a group of hookers with them. wah sad case man because the guys all look like educated ones. yet they get hookers... so sad. you never know what a hooker might carry along with her. might be aids, HIV or an extra body part down there. with the amount of trannies, you never know HAHAHA. aaah well im going off to bed. i'll update soon! i'm too tired to type, mind you im typing this while lying down on my bed. i'm meeting my cousins later too so its gonna be fun, i think. well if i can keep my eyes open that is. gniiiite.

Reeeallllly?

Girl 1: Like oh my god, how big was it? Was it like around the moon big?!
Girl 2: It was big!
Girl 1: Shut up. No way!

Girl 1: I'm going back in december so..
Girl 2: wow, i'm reeeaaaaaally going to miss you. HEHEEHEHE

Girl 1: They say we're obnoxious americans but.. we are NOT!
Girl 2: wow did they reaaaally say that?
Girl 1: For god's sake we're brits! *insert irritating laughter here*
me to mizi: will they shut the fuck up already?

Yep, thats what me, mizi and fairul came across at mcdonalds. 2 chinese girls who talk in a british accent. It was funny yet irritating to hear 2 girls trying to fake an accent. Gosh it was so f'ing irritating... Even I dont speak like that when I was Houston lah! seriously they couldn't get more irritating, one day when I decide to cover something with mizi, i'll do my impersonation of them. okay update later, i'm reaaaaaallly hungry now. <- yes. reaaaaallly. on a side note: here's isa's new original song thats pretty good :)

edit: its 9:37am, im reeaaaally tired cause I havent slept for the whole damn night so off I go. i'll update tonight, promise :D

tell me what you're after.

I guess this isnt the best time for me to update because i'm supposed to shower by now but whatever :D. i'll make this a fast one before I update it in school.

- i love aidil's new blog song!
- the vocalist looks like a mexican! (he probably is)
- I havent slept for the entire niiight! okay well I took a short nap which only lasted 2 hours since I woke up at 1am.
- I CAN PLAY DISMANTLE.REPAIR ON BOTH ACOUSTIC AND ELECTRIC GUITAR WAHHAHAHAHA. Along with The Resistance!
- if you noticed, I changed my blog song from normal to acoustic version
- I'm jealous of everyone's cover videos on facebook because I dont have the time to cover anymore. to make matters worse, I have to wait another month before I can cover songs..
- I wanna cover 'aint no sunshine' :(
- my confidence level for math just went 50% higher thanks to my sensei Mizi.
- Aidil's new blog song is frickin awesome!!!! here's the song:

I'm sure it tasted oh so sweet, But it was never good enough for me
I bit the tongue behind my teeth, It was never good enough for me!
You said you always keep your word, show me what your after.
Just a little faster!

Awesome song! okay I REALLY got to go shower now. i'll edit soon!

I didnt sleep at all tonight.. ahha. I was up studying so i'm pretty worn out right now. i'll blog about it tonight! Suffer now, enjoy later.

'sudden breakdown'

i'm tired so I guess I have to keep it short for tonight. I changed my blog song from ESTK to Anberlin. I was studying just now and out of the blue I got the urge to listen to it. Aidil, its another great song from anberlin! It can rival paperthin hymn in my opinion but of course, paperthin hymn is better. its a sad song also, so its good.

One last glance from a taxi cab
Images scar my mind
Four weeks felt like years
Since your full attention was all mine
The night was young and so were we
Talked about life, God, death, and your family
Didn't want any promises,
Just my undivided honesty, and you said

"Oh oh, things are gonna change now for the better"
"Oh oh, things are gonna change, oh, they're gonna change"

I am the patron saint of lost causes
A fraction of who I once believed (change)
only a matter of time
Opinions I would try and rewrite
If life had background music playing your song
I've got to be honest, I tried to escape you
But the orchestra plays on, and they sang

"Oh oh, things are gonna change now for the better"
"Oh oh, things are gonna change"

[Chorus 2x]
Hands, like secrets, are the hardest thing to keep from you
Lines and phrases, like knives, your words can cut me through
Dismantle me down (repair)
You've dismantled me
You've dismantled me

Give me time to prove
Prove I want the rest of yours (prelude)
Call this a prelude to a lifetime of you
It's not that I hang on every word
I hang myself on what you repeat
It's not that I keep hanging on
I'm never letting go

Hands, like secrets, are the hardest thing to keep from you
Lines and phrases, like knives, your words can cut me through
Dismantle me down (repair)
You've dismantled me
You've dismantled me

It's hard to ignore our emotions, no matter how many times we try because the only thing we'll ever succeed is delaying it. there's no such thing as being immune to it. It will hit us like a train-wreck eventually, just like it hit me just now. Dismantle me down... repair.

I couldn't hide to save my life.

Enjoy the new song, Aidil intro'ed it to me a few nights ago. Update soon...

paparazzi!

omg go to my facebook profile to see Isa's AWESOME cover. ahah its seriously very nice! I think everyone should be able to see the video if you go to my profile. I wanted to embed it here but I couldnt find the code so just go to my profile in facebook. He covered paparazzi by lady gaga. Reaaaally good vocals! you guys should definately check it out. it is THAT good that I just had to blog about it. :D

GREEEEY

It's amazing how i'm not feeling sleepy yet. HAH. sleep is for the weak. I woke up at 3pm just now, so you can guess what I missed. sheesh I need to sleep early! anyways I just uploaded this video around midnight just now. watch the video in High Quality please, the sound and video is better in HQ. The audio from this video is pretty good cause i'm using my new Canon Camera. It was taken a few weeks back when the guys went over my place. (You can see the new bed I got for hari raya). The video quality was pretty good before I uploaded it. oh well, atleast the audio quality is really good :).

Me and Mizi can go join the choir now :D. We'd be awesome backup singers. HAH. big joke. It always makes me laugh when I hear Mizi say 'GREEEY' at 3:54 AHAHA.
okaaay time for me to sleep. i'm SO going to cover the song at the end when i'm done with my exams.
okay gnite ppls! :D

Shifting your weight to throw off the pain.

Mizi, I stole your blog song, I hope you dont mind :D. I really like the song lah! The lyrics, vocals, guitar. All of them are perfectly set up in 1 song. I bought Brand New Eyes on Itunes! I've listened to their songs and in my opinion, RIOT is definitely better. There's a few songs in BNE that's good like careful, looking up and where the lines overlap. I love those 3 songs! But unfortunately the album wasn't what it hyped up to be. See, didnt I say that once a good band goes mainstream, their songs will start to become lousy? Another example would be Silverstein. The album before their latest one sucked, HARD. Nonetheless, I still love Paramore because they're so unique. I'm so going to learn the tabs for those 3 songs especially 'looking up' when im free. The palm mutes from the guitar on the verses sound so awesome even though they're simple! Now if only Paramore sounded more like Anberlin... wow. i'll let you imagine how GREAT Paramore would sound. I think BNE is a little disappointing but whatever, i'm sure they'll make a great album after this one.

I didnt go to sch just now, was too tired. I woke up at 1pm so yeah :x. I am so stressed out! The coming 3 weeks are really going to be the worst 3 weeks in my life so far but if I play my cards right, It will be one hell of an achievement. God, help me please. I know I can do it, I just know it. I'll update tonight, I got something to share with you guys.
oh well, gnite ppls!

The only thing I can say right now is, Happy Bday. that's all I can say so once again, Happy Bday.

*Fin.

You just don't know how much I dont want to do this right now. I've thought about it for a long time and I've decided to go on with what I'm going to say. i'm sorry but I have to do this.

Don't you remember doing this to me? '*Fin.' Yes, I am talking to YOU. you know who you are, nobody else. YES, YOU. I really didn't want to say this in the first place but... what kind of a person are you?! Is there something wrong with you or do you just love to bring me down over and over? Seriously, after all the crap that we've been through HAS IT EVER CROSSED YOUR MIND that maybe this guy has had enough? Even a normal person would've figured that out. and to think I actually had faith in you when we met after baybeats. yup, that's right. I actually had faith in you after a long time, it's just too bad that you never had faith in me.

You can't tell me how to feel, you just can't. Don't you ever get sick of your white lies? Especially after our 'little talk' right after baybeats. it was just another one of your white lies. infront of my face, you lied... again! Do you have a heart?! What kind of a heartless person would do anything to hurt another person who just wants both of them to be on friendly terms. Dont you atleast feel something?! Oh yeah and it wasn't the most intelligent thing to avoid me right after you said everything was fine between us. Frankly speaking, I think its really immature and you should change your mindset. In simpler terms, GROW UP. For god's sake, you're going to be 18 tonight! Judging from the way you handle things, you seem like you're still 11 years old. I know a girl's thinking is different from a guy but damn, atleast have some sense of maturity in your thinking. don't just go 'okay i'll avoid this guy'. you know what people do when faced with a problem? you deal with it instead of running away and avoiding things.

I dont wanna stretch it too long but i'm afraid that the only way we can understand each other is when you change the way you think of things, especially me. I don't know what you think of me right now but for god's sake, I was your friend. your friend. yet YOU still had the heart to do all those things to me. We can never agree on anything if you keep going on like this. If what I said wont affect you at all, then you really have no heart. I would'nt say that this is the end, because you still haven't changed yet. but from what you've shown all these while, I can tell you 1 thing that i've learnt from you:

You won't do anything about what I said.