worried sick

im so fucking worried about my maths paper 2. Physics paper yesterday was doable but for maths, oh my goodness. I forgot that I can use sin/cos rule for right angled triangles and I lost like 5 marks on that question. I didnt do a couple of other questions cause I had no idea how to do it but I DID try so maybe theres method marks somewhere in there. I did do the cumulative graph at the end so maybe that will pull my marks up because its 12 marks and it was doable. I got so worried about that stupid pencil question because everyone had different answers. I did do the sequence, souvenir and the angles in a circle questions though. oh man im worried as hell. hopefully I can balance both paper 1 and 2 so I can atleast get c6 for my maths. I was very satisfied with my paper 1 but its a totally different story for paper 2. omg I wanna go to poly... :(

what if I dont pass my O's all because of maths? I dont even know what to do if that happens... fuck lah I have to stop thinking about that. After the papers, I felt so disappointed and worried about my marks and I still cant stop thinking about it. I cant fail... oh my god. I think IF I dont pass my maths, I'll have to buy the maths O level paper for next year and sit for it again at the end of the year because I think now they can combine certificates. so that means if everything goes wrong, I only have to retake my maths but it'll be a new syllabus. URGH, fuck dammit herrizal stop thinking about failing. just hope for the best.

I dont want to go through the same process all over again. how many times in my life have I gotten so far and I end up ALMOST making it because of 1 stupid thing? its like being the best loser. always second. always 'almost made it'. and theres nobody else to blame except myself. -sigh I really hope I pass my maths. If I get c6 for it, i'll be so damn happy already. please... I just need a c6 for maths. thats all I ask.

theres no point thinking about it because it already passed so lets just hope for the best. hopefully I get a c6 for my maths so I'll be able to go to poly. theres some courses in Ngee Ann that doesnt need maths so its important for me to do well in my other subjects. its so damn irritating because all my subjects are alright except for maths. I just have to do really really well for the other subjects and just hope that I can go to poly. I have bio at 2pm tmr. atleast bio is one of my stronger subjects so I have to do well. im not in the mood right now and I have to study for my bio so im gonna end it here. this is getting too long anyways.
gnite ppls.

I love you, Germany.

hello ppls! :D okay this is gonna be a short post because I have to revise my physics so I'll just get straight to the point. History paper just now was alright and I finally managed to finish my paper on time unlike the prelims. SBQ was about CCP, KMT and the Long March. I did Germany for the SEQ because thats my best topic. I kept chanting to myself 'Germany... please dont fail me' and yeah it didnt fail me :D. yesss.. GERMANY!!! :D I only studied Germany and China so if Russia came out, I'd be dead meat. I also told myself that I have to finish the paper on time unlike my prelims. I wrote about 8 pages if im not wrong. oh well, time for me to go study my physics now. I have to go memorise my formulas and some other things. I think im going to sleep around 1am tonight so I can wake up early. All the best for your physics paper tmr!
oh well, gnite ppls! :D

4 year record gone down the drain

blah chelsea lost to liverpool 1 - 0 just now. there goes chelsea's 4 year unbeaten run at home -sigh. anyways im really sorry if I didnt update yesterday. I was too tired to update because I was occupied with lots of stuff like revising history and bio. the people who already cleared chem and geog dont have to worry that much this week but unfortunately for me, I have 4 papers this week. Hist, phy, maths paper 2 and bio. I cant wait for the O's to be over! imagine all the things that you're free to do. theres no such thing as 'NO TIME for anything' after the O's. I think ive waited long enough for the O's to be over. okay lah maybe 3 more weeks then I can be happy as hell ahah. for now, I still have to worry about my exams. nvm people, suffer now and we can enjoy as much as we want after the O's! :D anyways watch this ppls! you'll love it. its from a popular movie that im sure you guys have seen before. I dont wanna ruin the fun so you gotta watch the video :D.



arr matey! :P. well ive talked to my mom about me getting my driver's license when I turn 18 next year and shes very supportive about it. hopefully the age limit doesnt change. well im definately driving a car because its much more safer than the motor bike. I dont really like bikes anyways so yeah haha. I can imagine me going to school with my own car wahahaa. that way, my close friends who are going to the same school as me can get a free ride to school everyday :D.

you know if I actually stayed in the states when I was sec 3, I would already be driving by sec 4 because the minimum age to drive over there is 16. thankfully I didnt accept the offer because if I did, i'll be missing lots of people especially you know... her :D. I probably wouldnt even get to see her again after all those years IF I went away during sec 3. now that would've been really sad. BUT it didnt happen so I dont have to worry about that anymore ahahhaa :D hopefully I do get my driver's license next year. okay well im gonna go back to studying now and I think im gonna go to bed soon.
oh well, gnite ppls! :D

i will not choke on failure.

hello ppls! :D so we had our maths paper 1 just now and it was doable! All the questions that mizi went through with me came out. well not exactly but its like related so I got atleast some confidence for my paper 1 :D. you know what? initiallu, I thought that the paper was at 2pm. I was planning to memorise all my formulas on the next morning so I slept very early. while I was sleeping, I had this feeling that something was wrong. I woke up around 1am because of that. drank water and I had the sudden urge to check my entry proof. I got so f'ing shocked when I saw '0800'. Drank LOTS of coffee and studied until 715 then went to school. omg im telling you, I was shivering for the whole duration of the paper. nervous like hell. thankfully it all went alright! :D phew. im sure you guys can do it right?

went to eat at banquet with the 5a ppls after the papers and went home to sleep. I actually wanted to go watch the new High School Musical movie in the evening with the 5a people but I was so bloody tired I couldnt even pull myslf out of my magical bed. its a booty trap I tell you! once you lie down, you're never gonna get up. ahhaha im so tired im not even typing properly. wth booty trap -.-. trap booties? I didnt do much for tonight. ahaha ok well I still have 2 free tickets for shaw so im fine about not watching the new HSM. nvm I can use those 2 free tickets after the O's. I just need someone else to go watch a movie with me ah cause theres no way im going alone. nooo. I dont even know why im blogging right now but im gonna go to bed. im gonna update later tonight. for now,
I. need. sleeeeeeeep.
gnite ppls! :D

lucky

blah I dunno why im still awake now. I wanted to update earlier but I fell asleep and woke up around 3am. I didnt know what to do then so I decided to watch some champions league matches. hur, so much for 'sleeping early these days'. anyways we had our english paper just now and overall it was alright. I just wished that I could've done the composition without rushing so much. I chose question 2 which was about 'greed'. very sad story. Basically my story is like Max Payne + Godfather AHAHHA :D. I wrote about this greedy guy who got rich by dealing drugs with the mafia but he cheated them off their money. wife asks to stop but he disagrees. in the end, he finds his wife lying in a pool of blood on his bedroom floor. she got shot in the head because the mafia found out that he has been cheating them. oh and I ended with 'he realised that money is not the root of all evil, greed is.' somebody wise told me that last time so I just decided to put it in my compo :D. Paper 2 was alright because the passage was pretty interesting. next paper is on friday, maths paper 1. I think I can do it! well, hopefully I can do it :P.

anyways im planning of buying a new guitar. so far i've narrowed it down to 2 choices. The first one is AX-400. Ive tried it already and the sound was wicked! The other one is Atreyu's Dan Jacob signature series, DJ-600. I havent tried out the sound yet but it does look cool doesnt it? :P but im not only going for looks im going for sound also. Heres a picture of the two guitars. first one is ax-400 while the second one is the DJ-600.

If I wanna buy, i'll have to start saving from now because those two guitars range from 900 to 1200 bucks. I dunno, we'll see. okay last thing for the night or eh morning :P. heres another video of Alyssa Bernal but this time its a duet. I absolutely LOVE this video. the lyrics of the song is just wonderful cause it makes perfect sense to me ahhaa :D. really!



so sweet right ahahah :D. alright its time for me to collapse on my bed, hope you guys love the video!
gnite ppls! :D

mix match.

hello ppls! :D I havent been updating lately because these days im very busy with my studies like you guys are so im gonna make this entry a long one. I went to Isaac's house to study yesterday and I got home around 1am. I couldnt sleep until 6am -.-. I seriously need to get my sleeping schedule back on track! I think im gonna sleep really early these days. hopefully it'll work or else im gonna have trouble waking up for those early morning papers. luckily theres no paper today except for the chem students.

anyways ever since you guys saw the photo of my relatives during the hari raya outing, alot of people have been asking me how come my family/relatives dont even look close to malay. well the answer is because my whole family has ALOT of mixed people. it all started from my great grandfather. hes portugese while my great grandmother is indo chinese. my other great grandfather is arab and he married a mixed malay + french. from there it kinda spread down from child to child. the two american teenagers you guys saw in the photo are my cousins. the handsome one is called Danny while the girl is Lyana. they're also mixed american + malay. theres french, indo chinese, american, portugese, malay, spanish and arab blood in our whole family. alot of my uncle/aunts are mixed and they married a mixed person. most of the time their children will be damn pretty/handsome.

in other words, theres alot of combinations in my whole family. like 2 of my indo cousins Kalisa and Patricia. their dad indo chinese + french and their mom is american. they turned out to be really pretty! I didnt want to tell anyone because I know nobody would believe me until they saw a picture of my relatives ahha. I think that also explains why my sis looks more latin than malay and why im abit fair. my sister's husband or my brother in law is irish + american so I guess it goes on and on. okay well anyways, heres a cover that ive been wanting to put on my blog for quite sometime. you guys have to see this video, her voice is great! :D.



Her name is Alyssa Bernal and shes from San Diego, Texas. quite close to houston actually wahahaahha :D. shes really beautiful and I love her voice! I really love girls who can sing! oh and she really looks like Vanessa Hudgens from HSM! :D :D :D. except that Vanessa is filipino + american while this one is hispanic (mexican + american). oh well both are really pretty anyways :D. mixed people are attractive :D! Hopefully my sis moves to LA next year so I can meet alot of celebrities and attractive people when im there.. like Vanessa Hudgens AHHAHA. dream on herrizal -sigh. eh who knows? :P jk

okay im gonna go get some of my 'chim' words ready for tmr's english paper 1 then im off to bed. for those who are taking the papers tmr, all the best! i'll update tmr.
gnite ppls! :D

oh next to you and you next to me.

hello ppls! :D im taking a break from studying like hell for the past few hours. anyways yesterday the sec 5 people went out for the hari raya outing and it was so much fun! the first house was raudha's house and then ziq's house. after that we went to mr hisham's house which turned out to be a frickin 4 storey bungalow. Theres even a swimming pool just beside his doorstep. oh my goodness, I WANT a house like that. who knows maybe i'll get that kind of house like 10 or 15 years down the road? no, I must. ahaha :P The pics are with raudha and she didnt upload it yet so I cant show to you guys how his house looks like. The last house was mine and they arrived at about midnight. ahah the girls who saw a pic of my sister told me that she looks latin. ahah I think my sis is gonna be happy when I tell her that :D. they didnt spend alot of time here because everyone was feeling tired so they left early. showered and started revising my maths from 1am to 5 plus in the morning. my sleeping time is totally screwed up now :(.

anyways my mom called the moe and she asked about when we're getting the O level results. the person told my mom that they havent decided the exact date but its around 1st to the 15th of january. that means im only gonna be in houston for a month. eh its more of a bittersweet feeling but still its so unfair. when my sis took her O's, she got 6 months of holiday. wth now its only 2 months. so unfair right?! >:( okay im gonna go to sleep in awhile because theres a mock practical exam for bio later at 8. I dont wanna be a zombie later so I should sleep.
oh well, gnite ppls! :D

hot.

hello ppls! :D today is a pretty boring day for me because I didnt do much except study maths and physics. since theres no more school ive already planned to do 8 hours of maths and 4 hours of something else each day. I think if i keep going at this rate, I can atleast pass my maths and other subjects. yeah I know 12 hours of studying seems a little ridiculous but its alright if I start studying from 8 in the morning. that way, I have enough time to use the internet, blog and play my guitar :D. Forward planning is awesome ahaha. besides O's are like in two weeks time and I cant afford to screw up. hur, can you believe it? my sister wants me to study there IF I cant go to poly. I think I can get to poly if I just keep studying like this :D.

anyways me and halim went to peninsula yesterday because he wanted to change the pickup on his guitar. He spent like 300 bucks just to change the pickup. I bought a new set of strings for my guitar, picks and a new guitar strap because the previous one I had is frickin ugly. oh yeah and we met halim's ex schoolmate xingjue while we were waiting at BP's bus stop. I still remember her because we met last year. I think halim has a problem in saying 'hi' to people. I dunno why but its so hard for him to say hi to people. -.-

bah you know what? I just realised that Boston and Houston are totally far from each other. even though it sounds almost the same, its like totally two different places. Houston is in the south while Boston is in the north-east. actually if I was in ohio, that wouldnt really matter because Ohio is just 2 states away from Boston. New York is even better, 1 state away. It took my sis 6 hours to drive from Ohio to New York and thats 2 states away. but for houston ah... totally different story -sigh. I think if I were to live in america, i'd probably live in New York because.. I dunno I just love that place ahaha :D

oh and before anyone asks, New York doesnt have alot of hot angmohs. infact america is NOT filled with hot angmohs everywhere. most of them look normal and not even close to hot. theres alot of people in s'pore who thinks that all angmoh's are hot.. even the normal looking ones. worst part of it is that they'll automatically drool over the average looking white guy they see outside when hes not even hot! pfft very typical. even teemu agrees with me.

On the other hand Canada is.. wahhahaha :D. im telling you, its FILLED with hot girls. eh hello I got good taste okay?! :P. brunettes, blondes, you name it, they have it :D. all im saying is that Canada has hotter people than the US. like Avril Lavigne for EXAMPLE, shes canadian and shes hot! eh but of course US has Hayley Williams :D :D :D. okay I should stop talking about this because I can go on and on about it :P. okay im gonna end it here because im really tired. oh and theres a hari raya outing on monday for the sec 5 people so I cant wait for that :D. eh I cant listen to music because my right ear feels like its going to pop so I might aswell go sleeeeeep. it really hurts :(. I think im gonna have to go to the doctor soon.
oh well, gnite ppls! :D

last day of school

hello ppls! :D I havent updated my blog in almost a week now because I really didnt have the mood to go online. ok so I didnt go to sch on monday and tuesday as I was lazy ahaha :P. I think the class attendance for monday was like only 7? yesterday was the last day of sch for the people taking their O's so I had to come for my report book. we had this little ceremony at the auditorium where they showed us a video that the teachers made for us. omg it made everyone sad :(. anyways miss watie gave the f&n students an envelope each and it has a letter in it. this is what she wrote for me :D

I didnt expect miss watie to give me that ahaha. its really sweet of her to do that for us. wow time flies by so fast. I cant believe its like two more weeks to O's now. oh well im not gonna disappoint anyone so im gonna do my best for the O's.

anyways I finally got to watch camp rock the other night on disney channel (yeah I know im a little late :P). Ive always wanted to watch it but I always get distracted by something else. I loved the scene at the beach where Joe sings 'I gotta find you' to the girl. it was so sweet! I wish I could do that you know. omg it would be so sweet :D! I think movie is quite nice to watch cause it has its touching moments. okay im really tired right now and I dont know why im still awake at 4 in the morning. oh well im gonna go to sleep now.
gnite ppls! :D

thunder

hello ppls! :D this is gonna be a short entry because I have to study soon. yesterday was hari raya and overall I think it was okay. this year its not really exciting for some reason. I also didnt get enough sleep so I was feeling very lethargic the whole time. nonetheless, its still okay because I get to meet my cousins.

Alot of people didnt come to sch today because they're probably tired. I slept at 1am last night and I really didnt want to go to sch at first but I forced myself to go because im a good boy now what :D. Jas and Kamal told me that starting from next wednesday, the students who are taking their O's dont have to come to sch if they dont want to. that means I can do my self-study at home. its not confirmed yet but I really hope its true because I'd rather study at home than do other school papers in class. I can definately cover more topics that way especially for subjects like maths and humans.

Chelsea had their champions league match against Cluj earlier today and the final score is 0 - 0. Drogba has a knee injury so he'll be out for quite sometime. Man Utd won Aalborg 3 - 0. Berbatov scored 2 and rooney scored 1. I think Berbatov is finally getting used to it. okay I should stop talking about soccer now haha.

Paramore just released a new song called 'decode' people! you guys can hear the song at paramore's website. okay im gonna go study now. Im not going to sleep anytime soon because im waiting for 12 midnight wahhaha. im gonna wish someone a happy bday :D. see I told you, I never forget about people's bday. especially people like.. you know :D. ahaha alright im gonna end it here. I have to go put some of the photos that ive uploaded here in my blog for these past few months on my friendster(finally!).
oh well, gnite ppls! :D

random dandom

hello ppls! :D I wanted to update last night but I guess I was too lazy to blog last night. I didnt go to school just now because alot of people in the class already planned to pon school today :P. I asked around and found out that the class attendance just now is 11/27. alamak why you people come to school? -.- see lah now we cannot break the record already. omg im so bad :P

Today is quite a busy day for me because I had to clean the house and help my mom make the kuihs for hari raya. we made the usual, pineapple tarts, honey cornflakes etc. yeah I LOVE making cookies/kuihs cause I like fooling around with the dough. my mom gets irritated with me at times because of that! I cant help it lah, bad habit I guess hahha :P. well it IS fun to play with the dough so I guess its okay. oh and its not girly lah wth.

this is gonna be random but here are some of the pictures that have been hanging in my phone for quite sometime now. I think you guys havent seen them before so I might aswell upload them here :D

ok before anyone asks: I was wearing my shades indoors because I was having sore eyes when I took that pic. really. :D theres alot more pictures in my phone but ill just keep them for myself lah. oh yeah, I havent been updating my friendster for quite sometime. I think its about time I put some new photos. im gonna do it later I guess. eh we'll see..

so me and johnson were feeling damn bored during maths lesson on monday and out of the blue we started talking about lots of things like Prison Break, soccer, childhood memories etc. Even though we were in the same pri school, we didnt know each other until sec 1 so we had ALOT of stories to share. He told me that theres this crazy girl who once shouted 'Johnson, I want to hug you!!!' from the opposite block to his classroom when he was in pri 6 AHAHA. can you believe it? he got teased so bad that he actually ran out of his classroom! -.- oh and he also told me that he used to like this girl called Eunice back in primary school only that he was too shy to tell her that. I think I know that girl. well everyone tends to be shy at times. sometimes its best to not be shy and just go straight to the point right? ahah..

anyways I told him about something funny that happened when I was in kindergarten. Guess what? I once threw a feather duster at my kindergarten teacher because she kept making me cry :(. The best part is that it hit her right in the face when she wasnt aware WAHHAHA! :D. its not my fault, she was MEAN! the next thing I know is that my mom met the teacher and I got moved to another kindergarten urgh. but still, a 4 year old boy throwing a feather duster at the teacher is frickin priceless! ahaha :D

well its 5:07am right now and im stoning at my computer screen. *drools* im gonna end it here because im too tired and I need to sleeeeeep. im gonna update tmr. eh I have no idea why im still awake right now -.-
oh well, gnite ppls! :D