dont die on me modem!

URGH. my modem is acting all weird tonight and i dont even know why :/ i dunno what happened when all of a sudden im not connected to the internet. I had to turn it off for awhile and two hours later, its back to normal. -.- well im not surprised because ive been turning it on 24/7 for the past umm.. 2 years? anyways yesterday was quite a fun day but i guess i was a little frustrated. initially me, isaac and fairuz are supposed to go play pool at bukit batok CSC around 2pm but we had to reschedule it because we were all lazy and tired. i showered and had lunch since the outing was cancelled. i fell asleep while lying on my bed and the next thing i realised is that its already 450pm and mizi was calling me. the alarm in my phone didnt went off :x. we're supposed to meet with aidil and hafiz at 430 but i overslept so they went to tiet studio first. i got really frustrated on the way there because i had to rush like mad, my guitar bag was bloody heavy and the bus and the traffic was slow as hell. by the time i reached there, it was already 630 but luckily the slot for 630 to 730 was available so we didnt waste 30 mins.

we played face down, the taste the touch and smile in your sleep. we didnt have time to learn all 5 songs so we cut it down to 3. mizi learnt the tabs for the taste the touch from ultimate guitar while i learnt it by ear so there was confusion but we still did alright. omg im telling you, singing face down and smile in your sleep is torture for my throat. we were singing the initial version of face down when it used to have screamo. smile in your sleep was the hardest because that guy's voice is so high! dont even get me started on the screamo. i was getting frustrated as hell because i was losing my voice so i decided to let fahmi (mizi's brother) do the singing while i just play the guitar. nonetheless, i think everyone did alright if you ignore my voice screwing up at the wrong time because of sore throat. i sound like a robot now. if i called you and talked to you right now, you'd probably be freaked out because i sound HORRIBLE :'(. give it a few more days and my voice will be back to normal :D. well here are the pics that are posted in mizi's blog.

anyways i was supposed to go to danial's bbq just now but he suggested that i shouldnt go since theres alot of people who i dont know and theres not much food. it was already like 7 plus also so i decided not to go. im just gonna give him his present another day then. ahha the previous night, i waited until 1201 midnight to wish him happy bday but i wasnt the first one D:

me: its 1 minute past midnight... happy bday man!
danial: hey thanks alot! i really appreciate it.
me: so am i the first one to wish you happy bday?
danial: sorry man but my girlfriend was the first one. shes just infront of me haha.
me: wah so fast?! shes good.
danial: thats why! hahhaha. but still thanks bro, i really appreciate it!

hes probably happy that his girlfriend is the first person to wish him happy bday :D. i know him too well ahha. oh well im feeling hungry right now so im gonna stop here and go cook something. im gonna update at an earlier time later tonight! I promise.
oh well, gnite ppls! :D

clueless auntie

hello ppls! :D i just got back from meeting mizi, aidil, hafiz and fairul at esplanade just now. i slept at like 6 in the morning and i woke up 12 hours later if im not wrong. i cant remember. watched tv and ate dinner. wtf im totally nocturnal now :/. anyways mizi called me and asked me if i wanted to meet all of them at esplanade's library. showered, got ready and left my house around 830. yeah its kinda late to go to town at 830 but i seriously had nothing to do. it reminds me of the time when i wandered around New York alone at 2am. the weird thing is that new york is still packed as hell even at 2am! i loved to walk around times square, getting to see how the set of TRL looks like from outside, eating the large as hell new york pizza etc. eh okay back to singapore, while i was on the way to esplanade they decided to go to marina square and i arrived there around 930. we discussed about the songs that we're gonna play tmr and alot of other funny things like mizi's job of surveying people on the phone. AHAH omg i HAVE to put this here. i'll translate it from malay to english for you guys!

mizi: hello mak cik, i want to survey you about your recent polyclinic appointment on november 12th. this wont take long.
auntie: (translated) what i need to go to the polyclinic on the coming 12th ah? okay!
mizi: um.. no. you had a polyclinic appointment on november 12th. im asking you a survey about THAT appointment.
auntie: oh okay, thank you for telling me! i will go to the polyclinic on the coming 12th of the next month. thanks for telling mak cik ah!
mizi: no wait!
*auntie puts down phone*
mizi: -.-

omg i feel sorry for that auntie sia. shes gonna go to the polyclinic on the 12th and she'll be wondering how come theres no appointment for her ahhaha :P. we stopped by mac on the way back to buy a few burgers and i got home around 1145. im starting to feel tired already. anyways im really happy right now because my dad got for me a really awesome bday present in advance. he got for me a Mitsubishi Lancer Ex for my bday WHAHHAHA :D :D :D. i still have to wait until im 18 to drive it though. but its alright, i can wait! in the mean time, my brother is probably gonna use it alot because he already has his driver's license. omg i cant wait to go to poly everyday by driving my own car. i can even drive my friends around when we wanna go out. YAY! :D im gonna put a picture of the car below so you guys can see how it looks like. i really love it the looks of it :D. hehe its gonna be my baby this coming february! anyways me and mizi had this retarded conversation on msn a few nights ago. hungry people tend to talk nonsense i tell you!

blah i cant copy the picture of the car to my blog so just see it here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/gianvc/3023971634/

im really happy about the car that my dad gave me. you probably wont read this but dad, THANK YOU SO MUCH! :D well last thing for the night. i found ling, felix and oscar's facebook YAY! omg felix changed so much the last time i met him. by looking at his pictures hes damn hot now! no wonder theres alot of girls who keep commenting on his photo. omg we were so close last time and i even remember me, teemu and him talking about girls from 11pm till 6am just because felix got dumped by his girlfriend when we were 14. the times when we used to play Call of Duty together. oh good times, good times. its sad that felix already moved to sweden. oh and ling is DAMN pretty now omg! her real name's zefni but i dunno for what reason her nickname was ling. i added her already but she hasnt replied to my wall yet though. you guys can check out my facebook wall to see their pictures but i dont think you guys will be able to see felix's hot pics because he has a motorcycle for his profile picture.

thats it! when im at houston, im gonna take alot of pills/supplement that will make me have an appetite of a cow. im gonna work out everyday i tell you! just wait! okay im gonna end it here because im tired and i gotta sleep soon. tmr is a really busy day for me so i should be sleeping now.
oh well, gnite ppls! :D

you are my only one.

okay so its 5:28 am and im still awake because i cant sleep :/. anyways this is gonna be a short entry because i dont have much to say. im feeling better tonight, well not much really but still better. a couple of people talked to me about what happened and it made me realise that i was wrong. i just wish that she'd accept my apology and atleast talk to me again and get to know the real me. i never wish to hurt her at all and i hope everything goes back to the way it was, us being in good terms and atleast talking to one another.

i've been keeping it all a secret all this while and i just had to tell the truth. i couldn't live with the lies. i had to tell the truth and thats what i did in my previous entry. i dont want to lie to her like that ever again. i thank some of you for giving me advices and i just have to say that im NOT giving up on her or moving on. i did something wrong and thats why i have to undo them. its unlike me to just give up like that. i still believe i want her by my side because... I really love her alot. and thats the truth :D. okay i shall stop talking about that now.

i changed the song in my blog to 'fm static - tonight' because its a good song and it relates to my situation right now. you know what? im going jamming with aidil, mizi and hafiz on friday and they asked me to sing this song while playing the guitar yay! :D theres gonna be 5 songs and they are face down by red jump suit apparatus, smile in your sleep by silverstein, my only by goodnight nurse, the taste the touch by asteria and lastly, tonight - fm static. aidil and mizi wants me to sing all 5 of them O.O actually i think its going to be fun but it'll definately be tougher to sing it while playing the guitar. i shouldnt worry about it too much and just have fun :D. last thing for the night or err.. morning. i already edited my facebook so it should be a public profile now. just type in my name 'herrizal' there and it'll show up. apparently theres only 1 guy on facebook whos name is herrizal hahahhaha :D. alright i think im gonna end it here because mizi's coming over this afternoon and i really have to sleep now or else i cant wake up later.
oh well, gnite ppls! :D

i love you and i always will. <3

i dont know what hurts worse baby.

hey guys, i just finished showering not too long ago because i was jogging and working out around midnight just now. im kinda tired but i'll just keep on writing this entry because i have alot of things to say. this entry is going to be very long but once you read it all, you'll know how i feel. i'll start off with happier things. facebook is really interesting! i took this quiz and apparently it says that i'll be more likely to be attracted to a libra. ziq got libra too! then i realised that people who are born in the starting of october are libras :D. oh and its awesome too because i can keep in touch with my american and aussie friends! i even added teemu on facebook ahhaa. todd, markham and doug keep on giving me silly comments on my wall LOL. you guys HAVE to see it especially todd's comment about guitars on my wall. its damn funny! i guess that proves that i havent been lying about having american friends all this while eh? they're a bunch of funny and crazy people i tell you! :D

anyways i feel very disappointed when i got back from jogging just now because of someone. well i already felt a little disappointed at 4 plus last night but it got worse just now. geez theres no harm in accepting invites on facebook. seriously, why the hostilities after all this while? urgh. i dont know how to feel right now. i read entries from the archives including mine especially around october 2007 and few months ahead. suddenly i remember how often i was sad and heartbroken. i admit it, sometimes i even cried :/. guys DO cry at times. dont believe me? ask your guy friends. guys dont cry often except if something really bad happens to them. i hate those times when i felt like a complete fool. a frickin dumbass.

still, reminiscing about the past will just make me feel worse. thats why i think about the good times instead of the bad times. times when we used to talk often, help each other with our own issues, laugh about silly things, talk about the times when we were in primary school. i even remembered the time when i talked to her until 530am in the morning just to cheer her up even though i just got back, was totally exhausted and my eyes were literally closing by its own every few minutes. heh i remembered me constantly asking her to go shower every few minutes because i wanted to take a short nap ahha :P...

it became totally different soon after. i dont know how two good friends suddenly avoided each other after one of them confessed to the other about his feelings. would you hate your good friend if he/she confesses to you about his/her feelings after all these years? even if you said no, you cant possibly hate your friend and try to avoid him at all costs right? after all, yes or no, you both are good friends before that question. would you block him on msn, delete him on friendster, decline his facebook invite twice, ignore his calls when he wants to sort things out with you and avoid any communication between you two at all costs? im not gonna lie to you, i starting to have tears in my eyes the moment i wrote the previous sentence. it hurts too much to type that all out but its true. how would you feel if you were me and your good friend decided to avoid you at all costs when all you did is just ask the question? atleast talk to me on msn or something.

i told you, i dont even know how it happened. it just happened like that. of all people, it happened to me. ME. what did i ever do wrong for me to deserve this?! i admit, i did lie to her about myself but im not like that anymore. i realised that its so much better being myself. ive always been friendly to everyone. you wanna know whats the worst part? i get treated like that by the person who i considered to be a very good friend last time. fuck im thinking about the bad times again. actually you know what? if she actually came forward by calling me to sort things through, i would respect her decision be it yes/no and i'll gladly wait. what do you think ive being doing all this while? i've been waiting patiently even though we rarely talk to one another. that shows that i never let go no matter what and neither should you. its utterly pointless to be hostile or to be bound by fear.

sometimes i wonder does she even care about me? or is she just making fun of me and laughing at everytime i get sad or try to talk to her. blah im getting carried away which is very pathetic. i think its time to tell you the truth right now: i guess the reason that i dont understand girls is because i never had a girlfriend. only jack, mizi and fairuz knew that i never had a girlfriend all this while. not once. i realised that its the worst lie that i ever told her apart from me not being myself while talking to her. heck i even lied to you guys about having 3 exes. please dont talk to me about that stupid 1 day thing in sec 2 that you guys forced me into. i didnt even talk to the girl and the whole thing lasted a few hours. thats just stupid and i dont want to remember it. anyways i really regret all the lies because last time i was envying jack. i didnt think about what would happen and look at me now. pathetically crying. i never wanted to be in a relationship because im always afraid of getting heartbroken. i think im on the same page as her all this while. its just that she didnt know the truth because im too embarassed to say to her that i never had a girlfriend. people always say that the first love will always be long lasting and is the best. im still trying to go for the first girl that i ever fell in love with. i promised her that i'll never give up and i'll gladly accept her if she changes her mind. i never broke that promise and im not going to anytime soon. someone said to me once 'the key to a long lasting relationship is when both the guy and the girl overcome challenges together. no matter how bad the situation might be, if you both overcome it together the relationship will grow stronger'.

despite all the insults, me constantly being called a loser by my sis and bro for not having a girlfriend and peer pressure i still managed to have no girlfriend all this while. why? because i was frantically searching for her all those years and i never did gave up for 7 years... and im not going to give up now. i dont know why i lied to her. i should've been myself all along, then she would see the real herrizal who isnt mean or a downright jackass. she would've seen the real herrizal who is friendly to everyone and would be there for his friends no matter what. not everything that i said to her was a lie though. i really want to say sorry to her about all the lies. -sigh. listening to 'the man who can't be moved' is making me feel worse so im gonna end this entry. nonetheless if you put that all aside, i still care ALOT for her. no matter how angry/disappointed/sad/ i am, i still do care alot and i wish that its the same thing for her.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl
Oh..
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world.

prom pictures!

Hello ppls! :D I havent been updating lately because im lazy as hell but here we go. prom was really fun for me and im sure its the same for you guys too. the event started at 730. guess what time i left my house? 645. but thats because isaac's dad was kind enough to give me and isaac a lift to york hotel. so we arrived around 720 and by that time alot of people were already there. everyone's just taking pictures with each other so we joined in as well :D. the sec 5's had tons of handsome guys and pretty girls. actually i think we dressed up WAY better than the sec 4's. alot of people like maria, nafisah, delvin, intan, mdm hartati, mr hisham etc said that i look good in a tuxedo :D. yay! im gonna wear it again when im in houston for my sister's wedding. anyways the event didnt start until 8 and it took like 15 minutes for the food to be served. lots of things happened and the whole thing ended at about 11 plus. we took TONS of photos after that ahhaha. here are the pictures that I took. enjoy :)

zheng hao is like our personal bell boy for the night :P. i love this pic though! :D oh and the girls were going crazy when they saw him!

me and si min

miss rani! she was bugging me to take a photo with her so i did :D

benjamin and me. im telling you, ben's like the president's bodyguard LOL

michelle! my classmate for 5 years


kamal!

Johnson (left) and Jing Jie. i didnt get to take a picture with johnson because he had to leave early :(.

wen jie, the playboy in our mafia family :P. act shy only this guy. the girls were going goo-goo gah-gah that night when they saw him. HOT STUFF!!! :D

ziq(mafia kingpin), zul(assistant), isaac(financial advisor) and bonfurt(bodyguard).

from left to right: bodyguard, mastermind, prostitute dealer and mafia kingpin. omg kamal's face is damn scary. dont mess with the mafia!


these are happy times indeed


razak, the muscle of the mafia gang. we were acting cool lah :x


bodyguard, mastermind, prositute dealer and the mafia kingpin.


yeah i know, the mafia kingpin is quite retarded at times. jk :P.

alamak my junior is taller than me :x


me and jas with our vice principal mrs liao! :D


me and murni.


me and miss yee!


zheng hao(bellboy) and bernice!


jasvinny, wenjie and bonfurt! wenjie working his playboy 'skills' on jas :P.


yes i know im short, dont need to say it again. seriously.


*with british accent* the organiser, miss chong! shes one heck of an english teacher :D.



us posing with miss siti dahlia.


i look like some lost white kid in this picture AHAHA :x. cheywahh.


our maths teacher, miss liew! its alright i dont hold any grudges against her anymore :).

the mafia kingpin and his loyal henchmen.


the mastermind and the playboy. girls were staring at his hot chest AHAHAHA.


me and my bodyguard, bonfurt :D


see i told you i look awesome in a tux :D.


jovin winning a teddy bear for some contest that i forgot.


apparently mafia henchmen are made up of fierce looking people and... happy people?


the 3 mafia brothers. men-in-black :D


kamal and murni.


ziq dancing on stage.

bonfurt: how boss, having fun anot?
ziq: bodyguard, i need you to 'take care' of that guy over there.

bonfurt: that guy over there ah?! dont worry im gonna make him disappear.
ziq: you better do it or else i cut your pay in half.


ziq: *smiling* that guy is gonna get what he deserves...

bonfurt: boss, i took care of that guy already.

ziq: good job bodyguard. that'll teach him not to mess with me. (okay this is getting ridiculous HAHAHHA)

the 5a malay students and me.


mafia kingpin and his trusty financial advisor, isaac!


murni and nasri. nas, are you still reading my blog? :D

my favourite history teacher, mr siva! :D


i guess this is the whole mafia family :D.


me and ziq with mr hisham. remember guys bbq at his place soon!

i wonder what the hell i was doing when this pic was taken. -.-

we played pool after the prom. i was aiming the blue striped ball instead of the white one for photo taking purposes only :P.

jas having a hard time trying to hit the ball with full power :x


this pic looks really cool.

the backview of ziq.

ahyoo very disgusting lah ziq!

mafia kingpin with his uhh.. associates?


kamal the prostitute dealer focusing.


eh hello you're not a model lah. pls. :P


THANK YOU 5a for making my final year in school an enjoyable one. without you guys i'd probably be lonely as hell. im gonna miss you guys alot! D: keep in touch okay ppls? :D

alot of people from 5b didnt stay to take pictures so thats why i dont have my class photo. 5a is very united because all of them stayed back to take pictures. I have alot more photos but these are the better ones. i handpicked these photos and it took me quite awhile to write the captions so i hope you guys enjoyed it :D. i'll upload my remaining photos soon so you guys can check if your photos are there. we left the hotel at about 1135pm and the 11 of us headed to bkt timah to play pool. me and ziq taught kamal, jas and wen jie how to play pool while the others played amongst themselves. we played for quite awhile and i got home at around 1 plus. we all took a cab home. overall the prom was really an enjoyable one because of my friends and also the photo taking. im never gonna forget that night. im missing all my friends already :(. keep in touch ppls! :D

anyways germany lost to england 2-1 yesterday. its just a friendly so its alright. there was also brazil vs portugal but i didnt get to watch it. i tried searching for the score but i read somewhere that brazil won 6-2. its not confirmed but i hope its true. anyone know when they're gonna replay the match? i wanna see kaká and robinho go against cristiano ronaldo! okay well i didnt do much today except play my guitar and surf the net. my E string snapped so i cant learn some songs. i still can play power chords so thats atleast better than nothing. you know what? my horoscope for today is pretty accurate :D.

anyways im starting to use facebook because markham, todd, doug and the guys were bugging me to use it. its kinda confusing though. nonetheless i agree it has more things compared to friendster. i saw this mafia game on facebook that looks pretty interesting so im gonna check it out later. anyways im gonna mass invite alot of people after this entry so do me a favour people and accept my friend request. im still gonna use friendster but not as much as facebook. eh we'll see. alright im gonna end it here. im downloading maple as we speak. im thinking of playing it soon just to kill time. for now just accept my facebook invites people!
oh well, gnite ppls! :D