chisel my heart out of stone,I give in everytime.

wahahaha its 6am now? just lost 4 games in a row to my bro in winning eleven (oh i hate his team so much) and i cant sleep woooooo!! cant wait to get my guitar HAHAHA. :DDDD gonna get ESP Ltd either F10 or F50.. ahaha. i guess its time for me to be happy like MADDDDDDDDDDDDD after feeling so down after slacking and discussing 'stuff' with razak at starbucks. BUT! ahaha.. here's a pic of the guitar im getting,i literally fell in love with it when i first saw it :x.. HAHA :P



i was expecting dad to be a little bit naive about getting a new electric guitar BUT! he didnt :D :D.. he said its for my bday present WOOOOOO!! besides the last guitar he gave me was like what? 6?7? years ago? gonna call sis soon to ask her if she can or atleast is willing to put in some cashish :D.. must psycho! if can add few more hundred bucks then good lah can get better ones :P.. now if John would give me what i want..... i would want.... THIS. :P AHAHA dream on herrizal :(.. well its not fair i tell you! John gave sis a CAR for the love of god when she got all A1's for her uni exams.. and its just not any car.. Audi TT convertible knn... :( NO FAIR AH!



so yeah nothing happened much these few days except me playing pool with fairuz.. won 6-1 :D.. then oh yeah its really weird..like we've been so close friends for like 4 years? then like early this year we found out something.. WE'RE ACTUALLY COUSINS OMG.. Serious! my moms side! no wonder lah hahaha... haha weird world i tell you! and its not distant cousin somemore :|.. so treat razak the prom king for his bday.. pretty much slacked at starbucks and walked around.. got his words stuck in my head..but its sad truth lah.. after all it happened because.. of the stupidest reason there ever is. and i hate it when ppl contradict to take back what they didnt mean to say... BUT still haha talked lots of crap lah.. like how people like antonio and asraf got like a "BULLY ME" sign on their heads and how my skin is weird...lol like when it decides to be fair,it just is! and when it wants to be darker..well lets not go there :P like this pic,

Razak showed me some stuff he does in public thats well.. really i mean REALLY out of the box lol.. like for eg he go draw "eat me" sign outside the pet shop :| :|.. CRUEL MAN. CUTE ANIMALS!! and i cant believe we sang silverstein - my heroine(acoustic not screamo version :D) at the traffic light opp BP HAHAAHAHAH.. like got 15 ppl waiting and we sang like nobody's business. Damn loud u know! hahaha! but atleast its music to the ears mah and the ppls were not annoyed but rather amused and smiling HAHAH :P.. getting over the fear of singing to ppl.. SLOWLY! :D.. but still need to work on it.. im just scared lah! haha.. need something special to actually make me not scared to sing to ppl :|. i got lots of thing to stretch on if you wanna know about more sad stuff but i think i should give it a rest... BECAUSE IM GETTING MY GUITAR MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. tmr is miss watie's wedding.. after the wedding going to watch movie with wan jun :DDDD.. so today i think i going out elena or smth to see what to buy for miss watie. what the hell do u get as a present for someone's wedding? we'll see haha.. ok shit i gotta sleep now.. been sleeping for 2 hrs each day for 3 days cuz i cant sleep..worry about too much 'stuff'.

ahahahahaha this line from a song is stuck in my head :|..
"IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII will stone you,stone you,my little HALO!!"
i think now im proud to say. GOOD MORNING PPLS! im off to bed :x