ugh.. totally bad mood now. what the fucking hell man all i wanted to say was sorry and to apologise for all the shit that ive caused.. All i got was someone being a total ass. oh so its wrong now for someone to apologise or what? to a point where I cant even fucking apologise..now thats just plain fucking degrading.apparently its wrong to just be friends ah knn.. yeah this is me,fucking pissed off. Its like im trying to be friendly but someone's actions arent exactly making me go friendly. and I dont wanna lose a very good friend either,if you know what i fucking mean. which is why im trying to do this. Its not often that i gather up my courage and really say what i mean to her. like WTF, its not like im asking her to say yes,im actually apologising.. DOES IT LOOK LIKE IM TRYING TO GET HER TO SAY YES RIGHT NOW?!.. now if that was a normal person,i wouldnt give a flying fuck and literally take my shoe and throw at the face.. but this is kinda like a special friend. ok chill herrizal..relax... oh god i FUCKING HATE being pissed off. and i Dont wanna do something i'll regret like shit later on..so many choices,each with its own pro's and con's. yet i still think thats too harsh for her.. why would I wanna say harsh things that will piss off and hurt a friend so bad that she'll hate me forever?especially if she is a good friend and all. its not like ive been treated like rubbish right.. riiiiiiight.. yeah thats it.
ARGH.now i dont wanna piss/hurt anyone especially her but things are just pissing me off so bad.its like we can settle this in a peaceful way but nooooo~ lets do this in a way that in the end,we both end up hating each other.. ARGH.fucking retarded..so pissed right now.. weird thing is before that, Milan won 4-2 at the world club cup FINALS. AFTER 'that' happened, Liverpool fucking lost against Man Utd. Torres couldnt score for shit. Chelsea lost against Arsenal. Sheva couldnt score for shit too. fucking hell. tell them to kick their own balls cuz they fucking suck too. oh god.
keep on bending someone,no matter how strong/persistent he is,eventually he'll snap..fucking right to the core. sometimes i wonder,why am i so friendly to ppl at times.. so close to snapping right now.. sigh.
edit:11am now. well atleast i got my point across yesterday.. feel so much better now. all i said to her was the truth. no lies. sigh.. its all up to her really if she wanna end few years of friendship just like that. Ive done enough and more than enough so now theres nothing I can do so its all up to her.. im not gonna take my results while being angry or with a clouded mind ok so all the best for ur N lvl results guys :)
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